Who's she? (Chris sturniolo)

Part 44

Chris pov
"Chris I'm sorry" Victoria said looking out the window

"It's fine" I said driving un believably slow, after a minute I found my bearings and almost met the speed limit

"No it's not ok" she shook her head "I'm not good for you" she said

"You are unbelievably intoxicated" i said glancing at her "you don't know what's good for anybody" I said in a joking way

"I know how to handle my drugs" she said

"Good to know" I said nodding my head

"I'm just, I didn't grow up the way you did" she laughed "I moved around everywhere! And I don't have a single friend in any of those places, I didn't have anyone to tell me that smoking was bad for you, or that you shouldn't be drinking becasue you're too young, shit happened to me and I never told my mom, she already had so much to do and worry about that my stuff shouldn't be her problem"

She sighed "I've been grown up since I was 14" she said "I love my mom, and I'm happy that she's being a mom for Cece, but me and you, we didn't grow up with the same morals, you didn't do anything bad because you didn't want to disappoint anyone, I did stuff to stop thinking about what a disappointment I was and am"

"Victoria-" I said, she cut me off

"Just let me finish taking" she said

I nodded my head

"I get high in hopes that I'll stop thinking, I don't enjoy it at all, i just do it to quiet the noise, I never drink, so I don't have an explanation for that, I broke that habit a long time ago, the first time I drank I felt like shit after, I don't want you to start doing shit because I'm doing shit" she took a deep breath "I'm sorry for getting upset earlier, I'm a total fucking douche bag"

"It's ok" I said "you don't need to be sorry"

She shook her head, I could tell she was gonna cry

There was a moment of silence

I broke it "why'd you kiss James" I asked trying not to sound hurt

"I didn't want too" she said

I looked at her concerned for a moment before looking back at the road

She sighed "he likes to force himself onto people, he did it when I met him, and if I was anymore intoxicated he would have done it again tonight" she said

I was mad and felt bad and felt like throwing up all at the same time

"I guess I've kept some stuff to myself" she said "I should've told you"

"You should've" I said softly "but I get why you didn't"

"I swear to you" she said "I'll stop being scared to tell you things!" She frantically said "if I feel like shit, if I wanna get high, anything. I'll talk to you, but you have to do the same"

I nodded my head "sure"

"Chris" she said

I glanced at her

"I'm really fucking sorry" she said starting to cry

"Hey, hey, hey" I said turning onto her street "it's ok, I swear, I'm not even mad anymore, don't beat ur self up over it please" I truly wasn't mad anymore, I just wanted to hug her

"No becasue when you love someone you shouldn't fucking hurt them" she said

My brain stopped for a second, when you love someone...

"And I really fucking love you" she said

I know people say like "drunk words are sober thoughts" and I would love to just kiss her right now, but, she's drunk

"You're drunk" I said softly as I pulled into her driveway

"I'm fine" she said her eyes starting to close

I parked the car

"So when you're sober in the morning you'll be able to look at me and tell me you love me" I said

"I hope I can" she said

"Ok" I said softly, I got out of the car and went around to her side "come on" I said as I opened the door and helped her out of the car

"I just confessed my entire life story to you right now huh" she said

"Yep" I nodded my head as I unlocked her front door

"Fuck" she said "people tell me I trauma dump a lot"

"I don't think you trauma dump enough" I laughed lightly

She sat on the bottom step of the stairs "I hope you know I'm not gonna be able to walk up those" she said taking off her shoes

"Are you asking me to carry you upstairs" I laughed lightly

"Maybe" she said jokingly

"Maybe" i said mimicking her

She stood up slowly, slightly stumbling but I caught her

Victoria pov

I wrapped my arms around his neck as he picked me up

He carried me upstairs and to my room

When I was on my bed he asked yet another question

"What did you say to James" he asked

"I told him to fuck off" I said running my hands through my hair "I told him that he couldn't do what he did to me last time again, and that he just got his life back and he's clearly willing to fuck it up again for fucking sex"

Chris went into my closet and came back out with a hoodie and sweatpants

"Wait" i said as he handed it to me and was gonna leave the room "are you staying"

"Someone needs to make sure you don't choke on your own vomit" he said

"I got ur stuff in here somewhere" I said glancing around my room

"I saw some of my stuff in the laundry room" he said "get changed, I'll be back"

I nodded my head as he went back downstairs

Authors note

....... Truuuaaammmaaaa dump