Undecided Feelings [ON GOING]

Chapter 1

Its been four years simula nung lumipat kami ni mommy dito sa Baguio. My grandfather died two years ago and so far my grandma is doing well kahit wala na si lolo. Sometimes may pagkakataon na nagkakaron ng awkward moments pagkasama si lola , but Im enjoying her companion especially when I need help in other things.

Until now isang riddle parin sakin kung bakit lumipat kami dito ni mommy. Minsan bumibisita dito si daddy but he never stay here that long, siguro mga kalahati lng ng oras nya ang ibinibigay nya sakin after that aalis na ulit sya at ilang linggong hindi magpaparamdam.

I was startled when I heard a voice "Ishia are you listening to me?"

"O-Oo?" Alanganin kong sagot pag lingon ko sa kanya.

"Then tell me what I'm saying" paghahamon nya sakin.

I was silent for a moment thinking what was she was been saying.

"Oh..d ba di ka nakikinig tsk..tsk"

"A-ano ba ung sinasabi mo?" Nahihiya kong tanong sa kanya.

"Tinatanong kita kung sasama ka bukas sa party?"

"Party? Nino?" Pagtataka kong tanong.

"Party ni Herssi"

I just gave her a nood "Ahh....I'll ask my grandma later"

She smile at me devilish "Pag hindi ka pinayagan tumakas ka ha"

Nagbigla ako kaya naman na palakas bigla ang boses ko "What?!"

Eugene chuckled at my reaction "Nagbibiro lng hahaha" she continue to laugh.

I just rolled my eyes and let her laugh.

                         ***

"How was your school?" My lola Volet ask.

"Theres something I need to ask lola"

She look at me with confused expression "Go on"

I take a deep breath and get all my courage  "Can I...can I attend to my classmate party?"

"What time is that?"

"Its...actually....7pm" I said shyly.

She just shake her head, sign that I cannot go.

"But lola I reall-" hindi ko na natapos ang sasabihin ko ng biglang umimik sya. "No. When I said no its a No. And thats final" she restrictly said and she go to her bedroom.

I slam my door as I went to my bedroom. I lay down and change my cloths. After that I heard my cellphone notif and that sound means someone message me.

FROM: Eugene
TO: Ishia
Makakapunta ka ba bestie? Pag hindi wag mo nang gawin tumakas ha. Im just really kidding about it.😅love youuu

I know I shouldn't think about this but...habang papalapit na ng papalapit mag alas siyete mas lalong tinutukso ako ng utak ko na gawin ang bagay na hindi dapat.

                         ***

It was already 7pm, I knew some of my classmate was already there.

"Pagkatapos mong mag dayag matulog kana din agad" Utos ni lola Volet sakin.

"Opo lola" I smile at her "Good night po"

She smile to me "Good night din apo" she said as she went in her bed room.

Pagkatapos na pagkatapos kong maghugas ng mga piggan dumiretso agad ako sa'king kuwarto at nagpalit ng damit.