MY DEPRESSION HEALER/ Heehoon

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HEESEUNG

i went up to sunghoon and tried to make him as comfortable even if i do not hug him

"its ok, she didn't mean it" i said, he looked at me with tears in his eyes

"why are you lying huh? you dont have to lie, everyone in there knows im fat and ugly" he said, it really hurt me when he said that

"no sunghoon, your really beutiful just the way you are" i said, he looked at down and started shedding some tears

"why am i even crying if i hear these types of comments everyday, its just stupid that im crying over something that is true" he said, i looked at him confused

'everyday?, you cry everyday?' i thought as i just kept on looking at him

his crys soon turned into little snifs and soon enough the bell rang

"heeseung please leave me alone or else you will be like me and get in trouble" he said, thats the first sentence he has ever said to me fully

"nope, if we are leaving, we are leaving together" i said, he stood up and started leaving so i followed him

"you will get ashamed, why are you following me if im already so shameful" he asked, he looked hurt, i was hurt

he is hurt, i am hurt

we are both hurt

"im not ashamed of walking with you sunghoon" i said, now we are minutes late to class

"im just so fat, anyways im going to class" he said, we have science separately so he went his own way

when i entered the class the teacher was not here yet

SUNGHOON

i entered my science class and looked at the teacher who was glaring at me

i went to sit on my seat and got out my books

"bitch you take up the whole space" i heard a boy say in disgust

i just tried to ignore

the whole evening i was very disturbed by my classmates behaviours

but i know that what they are saying is true

i went back home only to be greeted by a decent foul smell

i looked around and saw the whole house was a mess

i heard my mother come up to me, she looked a me, i knew she has been crying

"mother whats wrong?" i asked her, she cried even more

"he broke up with me" she said, i looked at her as she cried even more

i know that i struggle with the same thing

but

i just

i-

seeing mom crying is my worst nightmare ever

especially because of a guy

even though she does nothing when they call me slut she is still my sweet mother that i love

"its ok" thats all i could say

i feel like the worst son she ever has

i feel guilty that i can do nothing about it

"can you take me to a bar?" she asked me, i nodded since i cant say no or else she is gonna be more sad

we made our way to the bar

when we reached we saw lots of people, i saw some familiar faces, like the girl that slapped me

soon enough i lost sight of my mother

i went looking for my mother, i decided i should just go home when i saw her making out with another guy

'she never learns her lesson'

i went back home but then was meeted with a bunch of people

"its the bitch that made heeseung slap me" they said, i looked at the people and one of them was mia and the other ones i didnt know

"oh your that slut that steals guys away from their girls, you fat ugly pig" they said

tears started dripping out of my eyes

'why am i even crying? i deserve it' i thought in my head

they started pointing at me, they started picking on me and laughing at me

more tears came out of my eyes

HEESEUNG

i went to the convinience store to get some medicines for my mother who is sick

but then i heard a tone of people

i went to where the noice was coming from

there i saw sunghoon who was cuddled into his knees crying with mia and her whoes laughing and picking on him

"HEY" i shouted, they all turned their heads on me

mia came to me, i slared at her

i went up to sunghoon who was not crying anymore

i got him to get up and we went to a quiet place

i wiped out his dried tears with tisues

"why dont you just let it all out huh?" i asked him, he looked at me then looked down

nothing.......

nothing came out of his mouth

"its ok you will tell me when your ready" i said to him, he nodded, all i could think about is how he is hurt but doesnt wanna tell me

he calmed down and was about to leave

"let me drop you home?" i said, he looked at me then shooked his head

'its ok not to be ok' i thought to my head

he went home, i just looked at his reflection disapear in the night

i got a call from my brother

"where are you?"
"im coming, i just got in to a little commotion"
"ok, just come quickly"
"ight ill be there in no time"

i cutted the call and decided to go home

i was met by my brother waiting for me at the door step