MY DEPRESSION HEALER/ Heehoon

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SUNGHOON

i made my way to school, i saw my mothers third boyfriend looking at me with thirst in his eyes

he came towards me and gave me a slap

"you look like a slut and i hate sluts" he said, i tried not to make the tears in my house come out but they came out anyways

"mother im leaving" i said, she didnt say anything

im a single child and my father died last year

even if he was here it would be much worse than this

i made my way to the bus station

when i got in the bus everyone was looking at me as if i had done something wrong

i got insecure because of that and just decided to walk

i only have one friend and that is soobin, he is the only one i can trust

i finally reached school and i saw soobin running towards me

"wait hoonie what happened to your cheeks" he asked gently touching my cheeks

i hugged him and began to cry on his shoulder

"my moms boyfriend slapped me this morning and called me a slut" i said, he got me to get my head up and began wiping my tears

"its ok, you have me, you know you can always come to my place if you need" he said, i nodded in agreement and we made our way down the hallways

i went to put my stuff in my locker

when i was putting my stuff someone came and tripped me, i fell hard on my face bruising it

i am loosing hope in life

soobin saw that since he was memorising for the test so his attention wasnt this way at the time

"omg sorry i wasnt looking, who did this to you" he said angrily putting his book away

i shrugged and got up

we started hearing cheering noises and knew what was coming

'why am i even here?'

'who even wants me here'

'if my own mother doesnt love me then who would?'

those questions kept on spinning around my head for days but i still had no answer to it

but the screams got even louder, i saw soobins boyfriend coming this way

"hey binnie" he said, they hugged, soobin is popular as well but i dont know why he still want to be my friend 

im always broken

i dont deserve to be loved

im too depressed for this world

i was thinking on my head until i heard a voice

"hey are you ok?" i saw yeosang asking, i saw heeseung coming this way since he is his bestfriend

i nodded my head

there was a rumour that those two used to date because of how close they are but its not true

"OK sorry for the disturbance" he said, I looked at the both of them who were backhugging

I saw heeseung looking at me but I avoided eye contact

'Now I get why people shipped you two a lot' I thought to myself

"Let's go hee" yeosang said dragging heeseung, I looked to my side only to find that soobin has been dragged by his boyfriend

I made my way to english, we have an English test that we need to do

I have faith that I might fail

I went to sit down but a person came

"Thats where I seat" danken said, I looked at him unbothered

"I said that's where I sit" he said, I looked at him and then looked at my book

Danked always tries to get me but always fails

He is not that much popular like soobin tho

He smashed his hand on my desk

I saw jake, sunoo, heeseung, hongjoong and san come into the room

"I SAID THATS WHERE I SIT NOW MOVE" he said shouting, I only looked at him embarrassing him alot

He eventually got over the fact that im not going anywhere

'Bitch ass mother fuckers'

I visualised everything

When the teacher came in the room, he came with the test papers

"Um sunghoon please hand out these test papers" the teacher said pointing the papers at me

I went towards him and took the papers

I started giving them out

When I got to heeseung, he looked at me with some kind if look

It reminded me of the look that mom and dad used to give each other

My heart melted when he relaxed his hands and started staring more at me

'Who would even waist their time looking at me?' I asked myself

I reached over to danken who looked at me with angry eyes

I rolled my eyes and handed him the paper

I saved one for myself then the teacher said we could start

'Meaning of onomatopiea

Answer: a word that describes sounds like boom, bang, kapow

Meaning of a simile

Answer: a sentence that repeats its self with the words that or as

Meaning of metaphor

Answer: sentences that are irrelevant

Meaning of personification

Answer: sentences that uses human like words

E.g: the tree is walking every night

Meaning of alliteration

Answer: rhyming words

Meaning of demographic
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I answered all of my questions late while everyone was finished

I went to give my paper to the teacher

I somehow felt something weird around my stomach

When I turned around I saw heeseung looking at me