mercury reaches its morning peak

reflection.

my god, the energy and sanity i depleted for you left an amaroidal taste in my mouth exactly like my mother's cheap boxed wine from the convenience store down the street

some terrors are conquerable, and some terrors will become who you are. but you were my reflection from the first day i looked into your eyes. the magnetic cosmic pull i felt in your presence must have came from the way i understood why you were the way you were. i could feel the vibrations in my bones

if anything, that feeling came from how exceedingly identical you and i are. we mirrored each other. we were both labeled as badly behaved kids, suffering in our abusive addict homes and unable to focus in school 

then you lacerated my heart and i realized we weren't as similar as i thought, something i used to carry around like an infamous trophy

we're mirrors in some ways but in other aspects there is no reflection looking back at me