(Most of these things have happened some months or years ago)
Me: *self-harms*
My mom: *either ignores it, gets angry or goes and I quote "have you ever thought of how that makes me feel?!"
Like, seriously? You made it about yourself AND blamed me as the bad guy in the process? Wow.
Me: *comes out as transgender*
My mom: *tells me I'm too young, it's just my autism and even now she's kinda transphobic*
My mom: "People don't dislike you, because you're autistic/trans, it's because of your personality." (That's about what she said)
She's never on my side
She talks shit about me and when I agree with her she gets upset. "You know that's bullshit!"
In general, her mood swings are kinda heavy
She talks about me behind my back, sometimes even openly
I'm always hesitant about talking to her about my stuff, because she might get mad
She makes me feel humiliated
She makes me feel like the ungrateful monster that I am...
Oh, she can ruin days with her stupid mood
Sometimes she's my mom, my best friend
Sometimes she's the reason why I want to kill myself or hate myself in general
I CAN'T FUCKING STAND HER LAUGHTER.
But of course, I'm just a teenage girl who thinks the world revolves around her.
