My thoughts

Friends

I am once again falling in love with someone I shouldn't be.

I am falling in love with a friend. A best friend. And I even might think that they like me back. They might not know that I like them and that's good. It's how it should be. They can't know.

They are my best friend. And if something were to happen between us, it probably would end. And it probably wouldn't end well. That just can't happen. Because then I will lose my best friend. I would lose one of my 12 soulmates. Because that is what they are to me. A soulmate, well one of them.

And I can't lose another soulmate. I can't lose another person. I can't love them, but I do. And I really shouldn't.

The worst part is that they are the person I want to tell this to. That i'm crushing on someone I can't have. But I can't tell that to them. I can't love them, but I do.

So I have to break silently, my heart has to break silently, clinging on hope that maybe it would work out even when it won't.

I can't lose my best friend.