A recollection of it all

Just Tell Me

You know I never thought this would happen

But hell I'm pretty dumb so it was no shocker to others

I get a few 'I'm sorry's' and 'you deserve mores.'

Why was I such a bore?

That he had to find someone else.

That he just up and left.

Whole heartedly

He was a part of me.

25% of a decade

A fucking scar to me.

Knew every fucking thing,

Word,

I've said ,

Without a doubt you can see.

I never meant anything to him

As he did to me.

Yet I stand here

In the rain that is my days

The flood that accompanies it of my tears.

Drown the internal screams of injustice

Lies, lies, I don't even get the truth?

Hell, I have never lied to him.

I can't physically lie, please break my heart

I hate this uncertainty.

Tell me.

Who am I to him?

Surely he won't tell me

But my friends will

Hearing from another is like an oil spill

In the ocean, polluted, killer.

Hurts like hell but I have hurt worse.

The words would hurt less than the death that came first.

Please. Just. Tell. Me.

I can't take the knowing,

Without the confirmation.

Just tell me.

Please.