Azeria- Trust, Sex, Guns

Azeria- Trust, Sex, Guns (Chapt 36)

Chapter 36

Regan POV

I collapsed on the bed not saying a word. Tiffany had been watching my every move since ive gotten back. 

Her-what did she say? 

Me-she didn't even hear me out. 

Her-do you blame her? 

Me-not at all." I closed my eyes taking deep breaths. I had ran back home knowing that Marques would probably be on look out 

Her-you should have stayed in Trinidad 

Me-I would have lost it if I had 

Her-your making things worse, she's still broken 

Me-since when did you even start caring about her. I thought you didn't like her 

Her-Well us girls have to have each other's back" I raised my eyebrow.  

Me-skeen. 

Her-I say leave it a year. 

Me-so another man can take her?  

Her-well, you brought this on yourself 

Me-some guy is already buying her shit. What should I do?" she lightly giggled 

Her-hehe I never thought the day would come when you ask me for advice" She continued to grin, I looked away refusing to smile at her immaturity.

Azeria POV

"Loving you wasn't a lie" I shook my head swallowing before getting out of bed. I hadn't slept all night, hadn't drunk, ate or even taking my regular dose of drugs and I now I was constantly shaking. I had stared at the needle all night and I couldn't bring myself to touching it, my throat was dry and so were my tears. Those words had been echoing through my head for almost 4 hours literally nothing else ran through my mind. I had cried all my tears and sobbed so hard my voice croaked. I-I need him. The worst thing of all was that I had sat here all night falling for those words, cried so hard because it hurt to hear them so late knowing that I would be doing the wrong thing for going back to him. He didn't deserve me and I deserved better, he lied and manipulated me to the point I don't know who I am anymore. I can't remember how it felt to be me and how it felt to have only myself as a responsibility. The only things in my thoughts were when was the next time me and Kadeesha was hitting oxford street. Now all I think about his him. Is he safe, where is he, was he thinking about me, and is he really sorry?

Maya-Sweetie you okay?" I nodded 

Her-I saw him leave." She said with a sympathetic look 

Me-he told me he loved me 

Her-hunny don't listen to him, he's lied once, he'll lie again. I'm just sad he came on your birthday." I had forgotten the party was for me, for my birthday. That's how badly I was wrapped up in him. I looked away 

Her-your beautiful and intelligent he's a loser who thinks you are far from it." I smiled 

Her-some people are not worth your tears, your mum was worth your tears all the times he put you through dangerous situations that was worth your tears but him. Don't let him know he has the power to weaken you, because knowing him he'd brake you down completely." I nodded 

Me-who knew you could preach" I nodded impressed, she laughed rolling her eyes. 

Her- I am serious, promise me to never let him in again unless you're in a serious situation and he is the only one that can help you.