Realising that everything changes
but it somehow stays the same;
like a bad version of the original.
I don't know where I belong,
maybe in the past
where I at least knew what I was doing.Agreeing without understanding
the consequences of my own actions;
it's like I'm a psychopath on the loose.
Like I lost control
of the boat I was navigating.
Do this, do that;
No.
I want to crash my boat into a big wave,
I want to learn how to breathe underwater,
a place where silence meets my soul,
where my body and my mind
can live and rest alone.I can't handle change.
Hate adapting to change.
I don't want things to change.
Cause every time it does
things go downhill.I can barely survive a day alone,
what's the future going to be like?
Trapped in my own mind.
Trapped with my own thoughts.
How, if nothing new occurs?Sleepless I breathe through my lungs;
the lungs I can barely breathe through.
"I wonder what they think
when they see me panicking."
When my eyes won't meet theirs
and my body only moves because it has to.I can't handle change.
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