Just A Troubled Mind Looking For Peace

Dear you

To that friend:

Now that I've told you, all I can see
Is the way you must be looking at me

Even if that's not what's on your mind
It must be somewhere, creeping inside

Because whenever I see you now
I drift back to how I told you

For me the pressure is constantly there.
So it's an alien thought to perceive it not

Constantly present in your mind now too;
At least when you see me.

It consumes me, this beast, thriving internally
On how I struggle through the day

I've tried to cage it, lock it away
But my barriers never hold

For your sake, I hope your bars are steel
And this never troubles you so

But it cant and it wont
At least not like its done to me

But thanks for bearing this weight
Only now i think, you've been placed on my back as well