Addicted to you

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Dinala ko muna sila sa sari-sarili nilang kwarto tsaka ako pumasok sa kwarto ko

Pag pasok ko sa kwarto ko bumungad sakin ang malaking portrait ni Maddie sa harap nang higaan ko

Maddie looked like Gabriella but they don't have the same eye color.

Maddie was my college lover, i studied at canada. It was my second year when i met Maddie, she is so smart and funny at the same time clueless. Every time she sees me she always wear her warm smile. She knew that im a dangerous person but she still stayed by my side even though she always got targeted. To me she is someone that should be protected at all times. We both graduated as law students, after we graduated i asked her if she could be my wife and she said when we both are in our 28 she announced that she is pregnant that time i was away for business trip. Umuwi nalang ako na nabalitaan na namatay si Maddie sa car accident habang pa uwi ito galing sa clinic, 8 months pregnant na siya nong namatay silang dalawa nang anak ko. Kasalanan ko kung bakit namatay si Maddie, kasalanan ko kung bakit hindi nai silang ang anak ko.

Nag palit na ako nang damit tsaka pumasok sa nursery room dapat nang anak ko.

Zeus devon cole. Ang naka lagay sa taas nang crib. Si Maddie ang nag design nang nursery room ni Zeus at siya na rin ang nag isip nang pangalan dapat nang anak namin.

White and grey ang kulay nang nursery room ni Zeus, lumapit ako sa crib ni Zeus tsaka kinuha yon elephant na stuff toy na naka lagay don.

"Two years old kana sana Zeus, how's your mommy doing? Is she alright there? It's rainy season again comfort your mommy there okay? Your mommy is scared to thunder so always stick to her. Tell your mommy i love her"i carefully placed the elephant stuff toy before going back to my room.

"Maddie,... GOD WHY DID YOU TAKE HER AWAY FROM ME!" Sigaw ko at napa upo sa tabi nang higaan ko.

"Just why...."

Narinig kong may kumatok kaya tumayo na ako at pinag buksan yon kumatok.

"H-hi, n-narinig kasi kita na sumigaw kaya kumatok ako para masiguro na ayos kalang"wika ni Gabriella.

"Im fine"inis kong sabi.

Tumango ito"uhm, baka gusto mo pag usapan natin, sabi nila pag nilabas mo yan mawawala yon mabigat na dam damin mo"

I sighed before opening my door to let her in.

"Get inside" nag pa gilid ako para maka pasok ito.

"Sit at my bed"utos ko.

Dumiretso ito hanggang sa matamaan niya nang cane yon paa nang kama ko.

Umupo ito tsaka hinintay niya ako.

Hinila ko yon upoan na nasa kwarto ko tsaka umupo sa harap niya.

"Uhm, pwede mong sabihin sakin kung bakit ka sumigaw. Ligtas ang secreto mo sakin"wika niya habang naka ngiti.

Will you get angry at me Maddie if you saw me talking to this girl?

"I.... I miss my wife"pag aamin ko.

Tumango ito na naman"nag hiwalay ba kayo?"

"No, she died along with my unborn son"i retort.

"Sorry, uhm i rant mo lang lahat sakin, na iintindihan kita" tinignan ko siya sa sinabi niya.

"She died because of a car accident habang pa uwi na siya galing sa clinic. Sabi nila nawalan daw nang preno yon sasakyan kaya nai bangga sila sa poste, that time wala ako sa tabi niya..... Before she died she texted me that our son is healthy and she also send me an ultrasound. But before she could end the call i heard her screamed and a loud crash was heard. Lahat nang business meeting dapat na pupuntahan ko pina cancel ko at agad ako non umuwi kaso ang na abotan ko nalang ay ang asawa ko na may kumot na katabi niya yon anak namin."tinignan ko muli siya, nakita ko ito na nakikinig ito habang malungkot ang expression niya.

"In her grave, i specially costumized it she is scared of thunder so whenever there's storm coming i always go there to comfort her. Nakikita ko parin yon kabaong niya dahil pina gawa ko sa glass yon parang bahay niya para hindi din siya matakot sa dilim. Pag patak ng 5 ng hapon pumu-punta ako sa simenteryo nilang dalawa para pag buksan sila nang ilaw. Dalawang taon na din sana ang anak ko"tumigil na ako sa pag salita, tumayo ito tsaka niya ako yinakap.

"Alam mo, sabi nila hindi daw maganda sa lalaki ang iiyak pero ayos lang na umiyak ka tao ka din kaya umiyak kalang sa balikat ko"wika niya.

I hesitated hugging her back but i did anyways.

The same warm feeling when i always felt when i hug Maddie, i felt also to Gabriella.

I hugged her till she asked if she can go back.

I let her go but before i could close my door i heard her saying good night to me.

I muttered a small good night before going to bed.

To be continued......