you are my home eremika fanfic

Chapter 20

EREN POV ;

we left my house and went to my car , we got in and all then we were heading to a restaurant to get some sushis , i played mika's favorite songs , i wanted to forget everything about what hange said , but it made me sad knowing that after 5 months or less my love will be gone forever , i can't except this reality , what will i do without her , how am i going to tell the others about it , i saw mika and she was smiling , her radiant smile made me comfortable and safe , then mika turned off the music and said 

- umm eren i want to ask u something

-what is it babe

- well i want to know if u want to tell the others about this

-about what . i said , then i realized , shit i'm so fucking dumb ,ughhhh i wanted to hit my head in a fucking wall

-[sigh] about my short l-life and the fact that i'm g-g-going t-to die s-soon . she said while shaking , she was holding her tears, i looked at her and i saw the pain in her eyes , then she said

-ereh i don't want to die , i want to stay w-with u  , w-w-why g-god w-why , u took e-every-t-thing from m-me , n-now u-u  w-want t-to take m-me a-after i-i found l-love a-and peace i-in t-this f-fucking life , why cruel world w-why , w-what w-will le-vi do ,w-what w-will u d-do e-eren, i d-don't w-want to d-die. she said while crying , there was a trafic so i hugged her and she cried in my chest , i tried my best not to cry , even if i wanted to , she was in pain , i let her say it all ,she needs to, why bad things happened to good persons, she needs comfort now  , so i looked at her , then i wiped her tears and said

- we will find a solution alright ur not gonna die alright . i said , i tried my best to convince my self that she's not going to die , then i kissed her then i looked her eyes , she calmed a bit and then i said 

-well u have to worry about one thing

-and what's that 

-how many sushis are u gonna eat ,and don't u dare think about  anything else except ur self , be selfish for once alright 

-ok ereh . she said while chuckling 

• 5 min later •

we were talking about random things , i tried my best to make her forget about all the bad shit , and then she said my name but with a H in the end 

-btw why do u call me ereh 

-cuz i'm lazy to say eren so i say ereh 

-wtf how can u be lazy for saying my name . i said while chuckling 

-hey don't judge me alright , it sound cute

-nah it sound sexy 

-s-shut up. she said while blushing and smiling , she looks so cute while she is blushing and her radiant smile means the world for me ,i will do everything to make her happy 

- anyways are we there yet

- well we are here 

it took us 5 min to find a place , since this restaurant is famous , i parked my car then i got out of the car i opened the door for mika then i took her hand and i told her if she got tired i will carry her since i planned to take her get some ice cream  , a nice walk... we went inside and we took a table and we sat there and we ordered and all , she looked so cute when she was trying to lift up her sleeves 

-what are u looking t ereh 

-well u look cute when ur trying to lift up ur sleeves 

-t-thanks . she said while blushing , it's been a week since we started dating and she is still shy when i compliment her , it made me chuckle