So Wrong Yet Feels So Right

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

Damn!

Napakapit ako sa high chair ng pababa na ako ay muntikan na akong tumumba. Umiikot na ang paningin ko at ano mang oras ay siguradong makakatulog na ako kahit saan.

Kailangan ko ng umuwi.

Luckily, I successfully got a cab very fast. Mabilis din akong nakaakyat papuntang unit ko. I've been living in my own condo for quite two years now. My dad was actually a bit hesitant to let me go especially that I don't want to have a bodyguard with me anymore. Politics is dirty and we all know that. You can't really tell. Mabuti na lang at sinuportahan naman ako ni Mommy.

Hindi naman masyadong bago sa akin ang mag-isa sa bahay. Madalas din naman kasing wala sila Mommy at Daddy sa bahay dahil sa trabaho, lalo na kapag panahon ng kampanya. Mga katulong at iba pang empleyado sa bahay lang ang madalas kong makasalamuha.

I drop my bag on a small couch inside my bedroom then I drag off my self to the bed.

Ah, nakakapagod. I want to take a shower but I'm really sleepy.

I woke up to a bright sunny day. Like the usual, I have nothing else to do but walk around my unit.

Unlike most of the girls my age, I have no regular job. Of course I want to have one but my parents just won't allow me to do so.

I want to run my own business but I don't think I am good at that. I have no experience running one so I am almost close to being clueless. I think the closest experience I can consider as a job is my very little contribution to our hotels management. And when I say little, it is really very little.

I am very dependent with my allowance my parents give me. I know that may of you will dream of a life like this. Nothing to worry about what to eat, what to spend, what time to wake up... but I'm telling you, being like this years after I graduated college is very suffocating.

It's like I have nothing to do with my life but party and dance. Mas maganda sana kung may kaibigan ako pero wala. All I have is acquaintances whom I can't consider as friends. They say friends were those whom you can lean on and they were not like that. The people I know were only present when there's a party and booz.

I have a bad hang over so I needed to cure it first. Damn! This is the only thing I dislike after I drank. It is hell!

"Ah!"

Napapamura ako sa sakit ng ulo. Gusto ko mang itulog na lang ito ay itinutulak na ako ng higaan. I am very awake and my head is throbbing really really bad.

But then, what else can I do with my life right?

The night came and I am already banging my head like crazy to the loud music

I'm on the exact same bar I was were last night.

Hang over is terribly bad but that can't still stop me from drinking again. Besides, this is the only thing I know how to do, and shopping. Pero sumusuka na ang closets ko sa dami ng mga damit at gamit na hindi ko pa nga nagagamit, kaya ngayon party na lang ulit.

"Amanda?"

Nilingon ko ang tumawag. It's a former classmate in college.

"Winona!" I greeted her but after that she already left to dance too.

"Woooh!"

For countless times, I would bang my head and sway my hips to the beat. Before I was very concerned doing things like this. I can still remember the second time I went to a bar. I was very worried that it might cause a bad record to my father who is a politician but there was none. I guess the first time, I wasn't just lucky. Hindi naman pala sa lahat ng gagawin ko ay may mga matang titingin.

And I like the feeling. Masya naman kapag ganitong nagpaparty ako. Minsan ay naaaya ng ilang mga kakilala na makisalo sa kanila pero palagi iyong iba-iba, wala akong permanenteng kasama.

"Ouch!" Muntik na akong mabuwal ng may nakatapak sa akin.

Ang sakit, takong pa ata ang nakatapak. I want to check how's my foot but I need to get off the dance floor first.

"Oh my gosh, miss be careful!" I hissed when for the second time she stepped on my foot again.

"Oh! I'm sorry, my bad," the girl said but she sounds no sincere.

Aalis na lang sana ako ng halos matumba naman sa akin ang babae dahil sa kaharutan. Shit?

"Hey!" I yelled, completely furious.

I don't know if I just have a really short range of temper or the alcohol has already gotten in my system giving me stronger desire to pull the girl's hair.

"I'm sorry again-"

"You know what, you better go home. Seems like you don't know how to dance in a place like this!" putol ko sa mga sasabihin niya.

Even in the dark shade of lighting, I was able to see her face getting furious as well.

Nagbago na ang isip ko. Hindi ako aalis dito hangga't hindi ko natuturuan ng leksiyon ang babaeng ito.

"Hey, I already said I'm sorry don't make it a big deal," she said but her bitch of a face is on.

"You said that a while ago, too pero naapakan mo ako ulit. Gaya ng sabi ko, mas mabuting umuwi ka na lang."

"Ang yabang mo naman! Hindi ko naman sinasadya!"

Ang ilang malapit sa amin na nakarinig ay nag-umpisa ng manuod sa amin. Wala naman akong pakialam kung manuod pa ang lahat.

Matpos akong iwanan ni Sechan sa ere para kay Ramona? Ngayong wala na namang tiwala sa akin ang mga magulang ko. Ano naman diba? What's worst it can get?

I was sure that I wanna pick a fight and pull her hair but before I could reach it, a big hand scope mine mid-air.

"Ano ba?" piglas ko kahit na bahagyang nagulat.

Muntikan na naman akong mawalan ng balanse sa lakas ng pagkakabawi ko sa kamay ko pero mabuti na lang may nakasalo ng likod ko.

"Damn, what are you doing?" I heard the guy  who caught me hissed.

"Get off me!"

Hinila noong lalaki ang kamay ko at kinaladkad ako papalabas ng bar. Sino ba itong bwisit na lalaking ito?

"Hey, I said get off me-" before I could even react more, nakita ko na kung sino ang humila sa akin.

Sa gulat ay hindi agad ako nakapagsalita. Anong ginagawa ng kuya ni Ramona dito?

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