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24- Karma of my love

They say the ultimate bliss is when

Your soul merges with The Supreme.

They talk about the pinnacle state

Of Moksha or Kaivalya or Paramapadam.

They argue that freedom from the bondage

Of innumerable birth and death cycles

Must be the highest aim of mankind.

But I just don't understand this theory.

To me, the ultimate bliss is love,

Loving that eternal Manmohana,

The charmer of minds and hearts,

That is pure bliss, that is Paramapadam...

That is Vaikuntha, that is Moksha ....

Because real Moksha is boring....

Of course I'd be united with Him

Forever and beyond, but....

It wouldn't be bliss or happiness.

It would be torment, eternal torment.

Because...

In Moksha you merge with Him.

You can't love Him, because you

Verily become a part of Him.

In Moksha, you can't listen to His tales about

How He went one step forward,

And broke the Bow into two, in Mithila;

Or how He went another step forward,

And not only subdued Kaaliya but

Danced on it; He always loved dramatics...

You can't sing about Him.

And can't drown in the beauty 

Of those songs that hold your love.

You can't even dream about Him.

You can't build castles in air,

About dancing Raas with Him,

Or playing on the swing with Him,

Or even feed Him butter.

You can't shower Him with wild roses,

At a temple, to everyone's shock...

Oh! And you can't talk to Him and

Tell Him how annoying your sibling is,

Or spend the nights crying your

Heart out to Him and hugging Him.

Tell me? When these are not possible,

Why would you want Paramapadam?

Why do you want Vaikuntha?

He once told in the Geetha,

About the Law of Karma...

That your Karma follows you,

Just like a shadow, better even,

Because even shadows disappear at noon,

But karma always stays.

You reap your results based on Karma.

 Karma that has been trailing you forever.

But tell me what Karma makes you 

Fall in love with Him?

Tell me what Karma is even eligible

To stand up for that?

It is impossible to determine....

Because nothing can be equated with

Love...

His love!

Other than Love itself!

So if Karma is love;

Then only love remains,

Love will cause love,

Which will cause more love,

And on and on....

Like a spiral that never ends....

So why would I ever want Moksha?

When I have the karma of Love?

His love!

I will take a trillion births.

And never be freed of this bondage.

Because I will love Him in all....

Due to my Karma of love....

So if I am allowed His love,

Why would I want Paramapadam?

I'll rather be born over and over,

And love Him over and over,

The pain of life will be there,

But it becomes bliss with love,

His Love is my Moksha or Vaikunth...

Tell me why should I give it up?

I know, merging with Him,

Being united with Him,

Tempts me too...

But when you have tasted that love....

Nothing is comparable to that....

Just as Rama's name is greater

Than Rama Himself

His Love is also greater than Him...

Some might consider me insane

After reading this...

They'll call me blind,

And ignorant.

But love is blind. 

Isn't it?