❆ Zoey ❆

Gods it's fucking embarrassing to say.... But I can't stop crying I mean yeah I got it under control and I'm no longer wheezing or sobbing hard and this pain in my chest left too I think. But the tears.. it won't stop like gods my eyes are bloodshot red and it's burning and irritating my eyes.. 
          
          Did I pick it up as a habit now? Acting all strong and cocky in the daytime and being a crying mess in night. Ah. I wish the night would last longer than days. It's peaceful and quiet.
          
          Nvm lol this damsel in distress is kinda out of it these past few days. I won't say that giving it up didn't cross my mind. 3 times? 4? I keep telling myself it will get better tomorrow and things will get better. But the more days I wake up for, things only get worse than yesterday.
          
          But then again I keep remembering things that once made me happy. Maybe life is shitty rn but I feel like I can do this shit if I try a little harder than before. 
          
          Aigooo this old woman in her early 20's... Mehh I'm at this point that either I want to go back to being a kid or go further in the future when I'm at 50's? 60's?
          
          Wish..Going to the beach at night, sitting there watching the waves crash on the shore with the moonlight and gentle breeze.. 
          
          Welp the thing is I might go on an indefinite hiatus, I really feel bad for not keeping up my promises and I don't even have the courage to face this but I'd add up another regret in my list if I disappear without any notice.. I hope I'd be forgiven <'3 if ya feel disappointed, just feel free to throw some curse at me ^^
          
          Oh also, I published those old books in that acc like I said, tho nothing seems readable in those but anyway, your wish is my command ^^ 
          
          Aishhh I don't wanna leave a note with such depressy tone. This could be a goodbye, I hope you all eat a lot and drink plenty of water and grow big and strong! stay safe okay? My lovely angels, as usual, remember to love yourself ! ❤️ 
          
          Until we meet again, see ya
          
          *Puts a rose on the stage and walks away*

“Time passes by. Every day is the same. And I was sick of it.”

It's totally unfair! >:0 my sis got 2 months and a half for holidays! Meanwhile me?! Got only 1 month and a half !!!!!! They could start the uni in July or smth!!!! Whyyy whyyyyyy!! 
          
          I don't wanna go back to uni  ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ
          
          Should I skip the first week hmmmm 

I Wanna Cry! 
          
          *StArTs crying super harddd*

Nothing annoys me more than not being able to find a ship fanfic.
          
          I cannot find a single ship fanfic but hundreds and thousands of xreaders 
          
          Imagining myself in a situation like that is kinda yk ultra weirddd! Boyyy gimme a breakkk. 
          
          Well I spend 5 days and night reading Painter of the night manhwa. 5 nights' goodnight sleep was sacrificed for a greater goood! And it's worthwhile bec I'm completely in love with it! 
          
          And I'm sad that it ended too quickly even tho they went through shit after shit, they deserve the happy ending. Yet. I'm a little bit greedy and want more of it (Seungho influenced me (⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠) )
          
          So I came here, the good old place where imagination runs wild! And here I am, with no words, for such a mere merchant like myself, a lowly life of a human creature, I feel pathetic bec of the noblemen have chosen xreaders and not Sekyum! 
          
          I ought to cry at this matter O' dear heavens, bless this sweet O' child with more ship fanfics! 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I'm good! (Definitely not I neeeeeeddd coffee but mom says no)
          
          
          Oh dear lord how I wished I was born into such noble family where they serve me such delicacies whenever I summon them with a finger flick. 
          
          I WANT TO BE A FUCKING PRINCESS IN A FANTASY MANHWA HALP TRUCK KUN SEND ME AWAY ToT I'm unworthy of living in this world, please choose meeeeeee 

I got the password for my oldest old acc (or you could say that first acc) and logged in and stalked my own acc bec its been ages God knows how long it has been since I logged in there, it's practically an ancient history. (I was hoping to collect some good old precious memories TvT but ended up ruining my own happy mood with unpleasant memories and some *cough* ) 
          
          And I'm truly, really, fucking obviously speechless and disturbed af. (Nothing much.. just re-reading the messages and I found smth I really shouldn't have and it makes me believe fate is playing shit with me. *Cough* ALL ALONG?! DO I KNOW SOME PEOPLE SINCE 2022- AND FORGOT ABOUT THEIR EXISTENCE- 
          
          Haaa. Or maybe I never really cared enough to acknowledge new people after that stalker incident (oof sorry I'm an introvert idiot back then- I am still- at least a little better than back then- oof goshhh )
          
          Geez the reason I even created this acc was to get out of that creep's sight and came here and forget all about that acc and people ;-;
          
          And I HAVE 600+ FOLLOWERS ON A LITERALLY DED ACC?! FR PLEASE LMAOO YALL COME HERE FROM THAT ACC IG TwT 
          
          Ooff for new people my oldiest old acc @Yuuzoe 
          
          Yaa... So anyway- do I really need to republish the cringe books-? I mean goshh they so so embarrassing now that I took a sneak peek and I couldn't last longer than 2 mins ಠ⁠﹏⁠ಠ the hell kind of bullshit is that- (expect some spam in case ya follow that acc-)
          
          But for the love of cringe, ig I'll do it- ahem- tho don't expect any new update for those books- ;-; my hands are tied up now so no updates just keep the book out- (I might change my mind later- hardly) 

So pretty random but I'm watching this ant bit my arm for like 2 mins now 
          
          Bro took out all the frustration and just walked away like "That was a good stress relief"
          
          Do I feel pity for the little thing and let him bite me out of generosity or I became more insanely stupid and maso 
          
          *Scratches the bite place aggressively*

What's the one thing you do when there's a lot going on in your mind and your heart is too heavy with these unexplainable feelings but talking about it to someone else feels like you're trying to get attention. What will you do other than reaching out to people ? (Asking for a friend)

Heyy yooo haru yaa ✨

"The logic of life
          
          You can't always be happy
          
          There will be someday when you will fall
          
          And when that day comes, think of me
          
          To the stars and back"
          
          :)