just came back here after not being active since like 2016. man, i miss all my people. i'm 22 now, going to college studying lab research and biotechnology, have four roommates (living with people sucks), and the most annoying green cheek conure parrot. this website was my lifeline while i was going through some really tough crap mentally and physically at 13/14/15. truly, teddy was my story trying to make sense of the headaches i was experiencing. teddy goes insane in the end and gets admitted into a mental hospital bc i felt like that was my reality. turns out i have a (non-cancerous) brain tumour, hydrocephalus (or "water on the brain"), and chiari malformation. took until i was 19 to get a doc to listen and order an mri. also found out i have adhd a couple months ago. i feel like i'm out of the woods with my depression and su1c1dal thoughts, but i still get hit with them sometimes. all this to say i can't believe i'm still alive. i can't believe i made it out when all i knew was the darkness. i'm so happy it didn't actually happen the night i attempted in hs. i'm so happy i got help. i'm so happy i found people who believed me, who listened to me, and who didn't stop looking for why i was in pain. i love you guys. thank you for saving me.