(on hiatus)

Hey beautiful person... you're awesome... I'm glad that instead of spreading negativity on the internet.. you're being a very positive person...I read your comment about your friend and really if you ever want to talk I'm there｡◕‿◕｡

i havent been this close to wanting to end everything in a while 

i remember saying this hiatus was only gonna be a month or two,,, i’ve honestly lost track of it at this point. 
          
          i have been writing a lot though. almost done with a whole story actually. idk if i’m posting it here though, i might do it on my new account. 
          
          how have you guys been?? 

hi it’s been a while. i’m currently writing stuff. idk if i’m gonna post it here but if i do, it won’t be till maybe january or smth. 

cayden, my precious angel. it’s been a year. a whole year without you. how? i can still hear your laugh and see your smile. the way you used to call me sweetheart and promise to never leave me. 
          
          when you’d help me through the bad things and tell me i was perfect no matter what and that you’d always be here to support me. how you helped me find myself. i don’t know who i am anymore. 
          
          when you left, you took me with you. and i’m never getting those parts of me back. you were the best thing that ever happened to me and i will always love you. no matter what. 
          
          cayden, it’s been a year. and it still hurts. i miss you. i love you. 
          
          now i’m gonna go through my day like nothing’s wrong because i can’t cry about this. i know how people are gonna react to that if i do. so i’m gonna go to religion. i’m gonna go to dance. i’m gonna do everything i have to do as i always do. and i’m gonna hope i don’t break. 
          
          i’m sorry i couldn’t help you. i love you. 

i doubt anyone bothered to read that but thanks if you did. 

i think i need a break. from this. from life. this time of year is not good for me. from august to december. so i probably won’t be on much. i’ll be writing in the meantime so when i get back i’ll have something to post. 
          
          this account has too many memories for this time of year. if you’re one of the people who knows what’s going on, you know what i’m talking about. 
          
          i’m gonna be on my other account that i share with a friend. we’re gonna be writing a lot while i’m gone from here. 
          
          if you wanna talk to me, pm me. i still check those. so yeah. 
          
          bye for now. 

WE ARE HEADED TO FRANCE IN A FEW HOURS!!!!! i’m so excitedddddd sksjdkajckdncj

IM GOING TO ITALY TOMORROW FOR THE REST OF AUGUST AHHHHH IM SO EXCITED
          
          i missed italy cause it’s been three years since we last went and i miss my cousins there and ahhhHhhHhHhhhHHHHHHHH

we were driving to the beach and we passed a really bad car accident where two people died and we saw the bodies and the blood in the cars and it brought back rlly bad memories. 
          
          http://longisland.news12.com/story/40845546/officials-2-people-killed-in-crash-on-meadowbrook-parkway