robinwritesatt
Well, I know it's been a while. I hadn't meant to let this page sit dormant for so long. I had plans, but as is often the case with plans, they kept changing. It's been an interesting year, and now that it's getting around to coming to a close, I finally have a chance to breathe and focus on what I want to do moving forward. Before you panic, this is not one of those and now I've decided to quit writing posts. I am actually coming back to writing. I just had to evaluate my relationship with it. I've left a lot of toxic situations in my life. I recently got out of another one, and I'm about to get out of yet another (there's a lot of toxicity going around, I guess), and that gave me a lot of time at the beginning of the year to think about why I write. I realized that I've often turned to writing as a form of escaping my real life when parts of it were bad. As I cut out the toxicity and fewer parts of my life were bad, I started to wonder if that was the only way to harness my creativity. If I wasn't playing a version of the tortured artist, was I even an artist at all, basically? It was a bit of a sobering thought. I had to reconcile it and discover if that was really the case. I felt like I had lost my mojo, so to speak, and while I wanted to get it back, I honestly didn't know if it was possible. But it is, it turns out. While I might have used writing as a coping mechanism in the past, I know now that it doesn't have to be that way. I love telling stories, and when I really looked at my body of work, I realized that there were plenty that weren't simply a trauma response. They exist simply because I wanted them to. And now more are going to! I'll be diving back in with a story that a lot of you have asked for more of, Just Smile, my Sons of Anarchy fanfiction starring Happy Lowman. I'll also be cleaning up my profile, organizing things, etc. It will be a long process, but I'm looking forward to it, and I hope you'll enjoy everything that's next.
35engel
@ robinwritesatt I'm so glad you're back. The realization that you have found for yourself is indeed very hard to find and even harder to admit to yourself. Take all the time in the world to get your bearings and if there is still room for a happy story, we love you even more.
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AngeliqueE30
@robinwritesatt Welcome back. Glad you are back to writing, but even more happier you are in a better space and place.
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