raevn-

I am such a horrible author and I don't deserve your forgiveness, because I honestly have NO excuse besides getting distracted by other story ideas and having an author block for One/Two.
          	
          	I would NOT want to start new stories before I finish my current WIP, that would be oh so upsetting-
          	
          	BUT I am still going to do so because I have decided upon myself that I am to do whatever helps me keep writing (and I've come to realize that apparently I LOVE making regretful decisions anyway).
          	
          	So I understand if you are all disappointed in me, but that's not going to stop me and I'm sorry-

raevn-

@Uncreativity101 that... really helped. Thank you so much 
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Uncreativity101

@AestheticallyDorky you're a horrible author not because you're not writing, but because you doubt yourself. Everyone has their own reasons for not writing whether it's writers block, life problems, or just procrastination. Instead of apologising, ask yourself what you're going to do. Is it that you're never going to write so your apologising that the book is completed? Or are you apologising for the long wait for the potential chapter that might come out? Because even if you take forever writing, filling the time that could be spent writing, just apologising, is unnecessary. You have nothing to apologise for.
          	  
          	  -Uncreativity101 
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raevn-

I am such a horrible author and I don't deserve your forgiveness, because I honestly have NO excuse besides getting distracted by other story ideas and having an author block for One/Two.
          
          I would NOT want to start new stories before I finish my current WIP, that would be oh so upsetting-
          
          BUT I am still going to do so because I have decided upon myself that I am to do whatever helps me keep writing (and I've come to realize that apparently I LOVE making regretful decisions anyway).
          
          So I understand if you are all disappointed in me, but that's not going to stop me and I'm sorry-

raevn-

@Uncreativity101 that... really helped. Thank you so much 
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Uncreativity101

@AestheticallyDorky you're a horrible author not because you're not writing, but because you doubt yourself. Everyone has their own reasons for not writing whether it's writers block, life problems, or just procrastination. Instead of apologising, ask yourself what you're going to do. Is it that you're never going to write so your apologising that the book is completed? Or are you apologising for the long wait for the potential chapter that might come out? Because even if you take forever writing, filling the time that could be spent writing, just apologising, is unnecessary. You have nothing to apologise for.
            
            -Uncreativity101 
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raevn-

TW: Suicide
          
          ☆゚.*・。゚
          
          -Today, I Have-
          
          It's currently 08.53. The sun is out, and today is a beautiful day. The sky is clear and bright, just like their eyes.
          
          The girl- or boy. It doesn't matter-was dancing once again on the edges of the skyscraper.
          
          Come on.
          Just one push.
          Just one shift.
          Just one little tangle of those dancing feet.
          
          Let go of the railing.
          
          Jump.
          
          'Oh how I'd like to.'
          
          'But today is a busy day, is it not?'
          
          It's currently 08.56, on a Monday.
          
          I suppose they're right.
          
          It's a busy day?
          
          Maybe tomorrow?
          
          'Tomorrow?'
          
          Hm.
          
          They hummed the melodies to Build Me Up, Buttercup. Smiling as the sun shone onto their average figure.
          
          'But tomorrow will be a busy night.'
          
          They leaped and danced happily along their own music.
          
          Just a simple push.
          
          'Would'nt it be scary for those people down there?'
          
          No. It's okay, be selfish for once.
          
          'Oh, okay. If you say so.' they steadily bowed down to the world before her, and did a small happy dance.
          
          Are you happy?
          'Quite, yes.'
          
          Don't worry, I'll be with you.
          
          They turned their back to the world and smiled once more, as their delicate feet gave a push.
          
          Wind blew from behind them.
          
          'It's fun.'
          
          The edge of the skyscraper where they used to dance on drew further and further.
          
          And they saw themselves, singing and dancing happily
          
          Before everything turned black, and the low humming of La Vie En Rose disappeared.
          
          'So?'
          
          Come with me, I'll sing you to sleep.
          
          'Thank you.'

raevn-

☆゚.*・。゚
          
          This is just a simple story, just a small scene about me, myself, and how I cope.
          
          -Tomorrow, I Shall-
          
          They knew what to do, they knew very well what was needed to be done if they wanted to end whatever it is that stops them from trying.
          
          But it's a busy night, maybe tomorrow.
          
          They loved themselves. Despite everything, they loved themselves. Despite being rough and messy, they loved their hair. Despite being chapped and dark from caffeine, they loved their lips. Despite the dark circles and eyebags, they loved their pair of dark coloured eyes. Despite not having tidy, shining white teeth, they loved their wide smiles.
          
          It was 20.52, the sun has set. And it's quite dark, but not really. The city lights have eliminated darkness. Most of the darkness.
          
          Their feet were dangling from the edge of the tall building. 'Any moment now.'
          
          But it's a busy night. Maybe tomorrow.
          
          They stood up and walked away, back home. Wherever that is.
          
          'I want to go bungee jumping.'
          
          'I want to walk that glass bridge.'
          
          'I want to go rock climbing.'
          
          Their friend once asked why so suddenly.
          
          'Adrenaline.'
          
          Suicide is a sin, and they already had enough of those. Hell isn't a joke.
          
          That is why
          
          every night
          
          they dance on the edge of the skyscraper
          
          admiring the city
          
          they thought they'd love
          
          admiring the height
          
          imagining their life flashing across
          
          their mind
          
          as they inch closer
          
          and closer
          
          against the concrete.
          
          'But I don't want to scare anybody.'
          
          They won't.
          
          'Huh, but it's a busy night. Maybe tomorrow.'
          
          Every night, feet dangling from the edge, lowly humming La Vie En Rose, knowing that a simple push or a little shift would be all that is necessary to end it all.
          
          But no.
          
          They swallowed the lump in their throat.
          
          Maybe one day, or maybe never. But tonight is a busy night, maybe tomorrow.
          
          'Maybe tomorrow?'
          
          Yes.
          
          
          Maybe tomorrow.

SweetPawn

今日は! Thank you so much for discovering and following my account, as well as reading KhunBam Scribes! I hope you found them worthwhile, and as always, keep safe~ („• ֊ •„)੭♡

raevn-

@SweetPawn Thank youu (*˘︶˘*).。*♡⁩
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raevn-

As you may already read on the latest chapter of Gun to Your Head;
          
          
          
          I give you the right to continue the story on your own on your account if u want. You can even mess it up a little and change the words or details, I really dont mind.
          
          Just credit me half the story or the idea, and I will be completely fine with it.
          
          Again, forgive me. But I really cant take it. Hate me if u want, Im too tired to care.
          
          Despite my state rn, Im still going to write One/Two as I promised. However, Im going to start next week, and I will only update once a week.
          
          
          
          
          Hope u understand.
          
          -Raevan.
          
          
          
          PS: The original plot for gtyh was that Shoyous grandmother planted a gem inside of Shoyous body, and the Mafia as well as all the other organizations fight for that gem inside her, but in the end Shoyou decided to destroy the gem and end her life along with it.
          
          If you want, you can continue the original plot. When I say I dont mind, I really dont mind. Thank you.

raevn-

I sometimes randomly feel anxious and restless, it feels like Ive done something wrong and/or I need to do something but Idk what. Ive tried watching youtube, go on tiktok, check insta, eat, drink, write, sleep, read- NOTHING FEELS RIGHT.
          
          Ive been getting this feeling for a quite long while but this particular one is really bothering. I cant think straight, and writing is becoming harder and harder.
          
          WTF IS THIS FEELING :)
          
          bitj I know Im not alone ಠ_ಠ

your_l_mum

@AestheticallyDorky I feel the same and it's starting to scare me
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raevn-

this message may be offensive
LISTEN UP U LITTLE SHITS– READ DIS SHIT
          
          
          
          LEARN TO NOT GIVE A FAWK.
          
          I HAVE MET A BUNCH OF PEOPLE THAT CONSTANTLY TELL ME THAT I CANT BECOME WHAT I WANT TO BECOME.
          
          FOR EXAMPLE, YALL LIKE HAIKYUU ? WANNA TRY VOLLEYBALL ? WANNA ACTUALLY LEARN AND PLAY ? WANNA BE A VOLLEYBALL PLAYER ?
          
          DONT LET THOSE BITCHES TELL YOU "YOU JUST WANNA TRY THAT BECAUSE OF THE ANIME."
          
          TELL THEM "THAT WAS FURUDATE SENSEIS PURPOSE ON MAKING THE DAMN ANIME YOU FUCKER."
          
          FURUDATE SENSEI SAID HER/HIMSELF THAT SHE/HE WANTED TO SHOW THE WORLD THAT VOLLEYBALL IS FUN BY MAKING HAIKYUU.
          
          THERE WAS AN EFFING LINE IN LIKE THE 401st CHAPTER THAT SAID "LETS ONCE AGAIN SHOW THE WORLD THAT VOLLEYBALL IS FUN."
          
          
          
          
          
          EVER HEARD OF FRANCESCA PICCININI ?
          
          SHE'S A PROFESSIONAL VOLLEYBALL PLAYER FROM ITALY AND SHE SAID IN AN INTERVIEW THAT SHE WAS INSPIRED FROM THE ANIME 'ATTACK NO.1'.
          
          THAT IS ENOUGH   P R O O F.
          
          
          
          
          
          SO DONT LISTEN TO THEM AND BE WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT ❤️

raevn-

FAWKIN READ DIS SHIET ♥︎
          
          
          HAPPY EFFING NEW YEARS YALL, LET US NOT DIE JUST YET, AMEN 
          
          but I mean- dying doesnt seem like a really bad idea-
          
          
          NO-
          
          STAY POSITIVE
          
          NO MORE CRYING URSELF TO SLEEP (SLEEP WITH A SMILE, WHETHER ITS A NICE GENUINE SMILE OR A CRAZY GRIN THAT MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE A PYSCOPATH, ANY CAN DO)
          
          NO MORE SELF HARM (ANGSTY FANFICS EXCLUDED) 
          
          NO MORE HATING URSELF (LMAO LOOK WHO'S TALKIN)
          
          
          
          I DONT FAWKIN UNDERSTAND THE WORLD SO YOU DO YOU AND BE HAPPY, ITS LITERALLY 3 AM HERE SO IMMA SLEEP CAUSE I NEEEEEED ITTTT (CLEARLY MY BRAIN AINT WORKIN YET).
          
          
          I feel like Im the only one that says this kind of stuff, its a joke, please dont come at me. I love you and genuinely care for you.
          
          
          But srsly tho, dont let us die just yet.

raevn-

  ♫︎
          
          Good afternoon ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ
          Hi, Im back, but Im here to announce something.
          
          I am going to unpublish all 3 of my stories (at once).
          
          I realize that I have a million flaws (probably more) in them, and I would really like to fix them.
          
          Im sorry for breaking my promise about updating on Friday (idk abt u, but its already Saturday in Indonesia), but I couldnt sleep soundly with those stupid little mistakes in each of my paragraphs.
          
          I dont know when I'll be publishing them again, but I dont want to rush. Im going to try my best to make each and every paragraph better.
          
          I hope you understand.
          
          Thank you and sorry ♡︎