popcornchiken

It just hit me that school holidays are soon for me… MORE ELEANOR WORK IS COMINGGGG!!!!!!!!

popcornchiken

I wanna do more writing for Eleanor, but idk what to do for episode 2. I want episode 2 to be a ‘get to know the characters better’/filler episode, but idk how to express that. Ik what to do for the episodes after but episode 2 is under a whole lot more construction…

popcornchiken

I told him how I felt. Well, not entirely, just that I wasn’t in the right headspace at that moment to talk/respond to messages. I just took a break from texting and I feel much better! But this man… HE IS SO GODDAMN RESPECTFUL I LOVE HIM!!!!! He told me to do what I had to do, get some rest, he loves me and hopes I get better soon. Idk how I got this lucky to be with him, he’s such a gentleman and I love him for it <33333 !!!!

popcornchiken

@RachRach_1223  tyyyy!!!! ^^ :333
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RachRach_1223

@popcornchiken Yayayay!!!! I hope only the best for y'all! >:3 You two are so cute! :D
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popcornchiken

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V3NT!!!!
          He has been messaging me the entire day, I love him I really do but it’s overwhelming me. It feels like I can’t get much me time. And by me time I mean ME TIME. I NEED SOME FUCKING TIME TO MYSELF OMFG LIKE PLEASE IM SORRY I LOVE YOU BUT STFU FOR LIKE A COUPLE HOURS A DAY. I LOVE TALKING TO YOU BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN I WANT TO TEXT YOU 24/7 EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY! I ALREADY HAD A MELTDOWN BECAUSE I COULDNT DO MY HOMEWORK THAT WAS DUE THAT NIGHT FROM HOW MUCH WE WERE TALKING AND CALLING. I DONT WANT TO FUCKING RUIN MY LIFE, MY GRADES, AND HOW WELL I AM FROM HOW MUCH WE TALK!!!!!!!!!
          REALLY I DO LOVE YOU BUT I CANT, I WANNA GET A FUCKING JOB! IF YOU TEXT ME 24/7 YOURE NOT GONNA HANDLE IT WHEN IM TRYING TO ACTUALLY BE RESPONSIBLE. GOD WE’RE BARELY 2 WEEKS IN AND IM ALREADY PISSED AT YOU JUST FROM TALKING TO ME BECAUSE IT OVERWHELMS ME AND I DONT WANT TO TELL YOU BECAUSE IDK HOW WELL YOURE GONNA HANDLE IT…
          
          
          
          
          Fuck. I’m a bad girlfriend, aren’t I?

MalLovesBenjamin

@popcornchiken makes me realize i might be a bad person myself... i didn't think anything of my constant messaging, but now that i think about it, always being there for someone might not mean to them that you love and support them and give them all of your undivided attention, it ... it might mean that i might actually be smothering my pookiekins!? oh omg! no! * cries heart tears in the horrors of reality! * like no joke no #sigh !!! my God what have I done! i ... im too extra to be in a relationship! this .. this villain kid... this villain kid truly... truly is ... EVIL!!!!!! .... oh holy God NooOOO Why!!!????? Help MEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kittenn heart * dead *
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Deeply_Kawaii

@popcornchiken I don't think you're a bad girlfriend, this is exactly how I feel most days. I suggest you come up with a calm way to let him know you need a bit of space and you want to be texted less, j can help you if you need. But it will be alright, it's a new relationship so you're still just getting used to having someone around who is more than just a friend
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popcornchiken

If you ever hear my say ‘my autism’ randomly/when I’m not talking about (my) mental disabilities, I am referring to my pink cat plush that I bought at a convention and named autism

IAmNotABookwormButOk

@popcornchiken WHOA!!! :OOO
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MalLovesBenjamin

@popcornchiken hehe i love plushies that is EXCELLENT!!!!!!!!! verY BRILLIANT!!!!!!!!
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popcornchiken

Tonight was interesting, made a cheese toastie for my mum(that she ended up feeding half to the dog) and also randomly remembered that I’m in a happy relationship and obsessed over my boyfriend for a while(I still am btw- I’m about to go to bed and cuddle my autism and think about him :333)