pinkblueyellow54

This. This was one of the best days of my life. : )

My current mood is the song "Tell Me Lies" from Cats Don't Dance.
          
          I love that songs can tell stories when I can't. 

I knew it. I called it. I had hope anyway just for it to be shattered.
          
          Maybe it will turn around...
          
          I just wish I believed it...

A positive step happened today. 
          
          Holding my breath that this means it can be safe to post again soon. 

How is it getting more unsafe by the day?
          
          I hate this. 

I thought I was fine. I thought I got over it.
          
          I was wrong. I'm still sad, upset and tired.
          
          I know how vague and cryptic that is, but right now I have to live life vague and cryptic because it's still not safe. 
          
          I'm hoping it will be safe soon. 
          
          Love you. Stay safe everyone.
          
          -pby54

I don't know if I'm still sick or if it's because the last two days have been terrible for sleeping, but I'm so exhausted.

For the first time in two months, I finally feel okay. And even if that okay feeling is just for right now, I'll take it. 

I honestly don't know how I'm surviving right now...

I wish I knew was best for me right now.
          
          Things are getting worse here and it's like everything and everyone around me is screaming to get out...and yet...what the hell is keeping me here...