Paige

You should make another book like with dean and Sam having a little sister but where dean finds out or Castile it was so good I just would love to see it from different point of views as well!!

So I had a slip up for the first time in over a year over a fucking dentist appointment. I'm okayand safe and I have a great therapist and lots of support, but I'm just so anxious I know if I talk to anybody about why I'm upset I'll start panicking again. So I feel like I'm trapped in a hamster ball of emotions and it's bringing the feelings I had before I started my book. I haven't felt this overwhelmed with feelings in a long time and it's scary that they all came back with a touch of bad news. I'm just really upset right now. 

I just wanted to tell you that I am so proud of you for writing and publishing a story that is so personal.  You are a rock star for being so brave to talk so openly about it. You are so encouraging in your authors notes and I can tell that you have a very kind heart and are an encouragement to others. 
          I hope you are well and in a good place in your life and if you happen to be struggling please know you aren't alone. I really appreciate you sharing your feelings about SH and it makes me not feel so alone and that truly helps when you are having a off day when I'm stressed and struggling.  Thank you!♡

So I work in mental health and the red tape everywhere is SO FRUSTRATING. How is anybody supposed to make a difference when there's all this beauocracy fucking over the team? 

Imma just shout out to @deanmonlover67 for being awesome and amazing. Go follow them and read their stories!! ❤❤❤

Listen, I'm sure these are really friggin annoying but I need to to tell me you're alright. I need you to talk to me. You said you didn't feel safe and it scares me. Please just respond.

Hey. Checking in again. You haven't responded and if you need space that's fine but if you want/need to talk, you can always dm me. You might just be busy, I dunno, but please respond when you can. I wanna make sure you're okay. Even if you're not okay, it'd still be nice to hear something from you.

I'm struggling. A lot. It doesn't feel good. 

So I just got a tattoo in the same area I used to SH in and I've been noticing a lot of feelings coming up because it's an open wound in the same spot and the healing feels very similar. 
          I think it's just triggering a lot of tactile memories I wasn't aware of because it feels very familiar and unwelcome. It isn't unbearable or especially triggering and I'm totally safe, but it's definitely an unpleasant feeling that I could have lived without. Has anyone else had this experience??? 

I relapsed.