noodleopera

If anyone comes across this, either by being lost on the internet or after reading my fanfics, just know I'm doing all okay and well! Just wanted to leave this here since there still are some new readers, and I've been on hiatus for quite long! :) <3

Do you publish on Neobook ?

Guys, be proud of me B) I've gotten a new boyfriend that isn't an asshole and treats me well. Progress!

Hey hey guys, I have a new story so feel free to check it out if you're interested :)

I have just realized a big plothole in my story... At least I noticed it but T.T

if there's someone here who's fangirling over Kokichi, you have to play Nightshade. There is literally his long lost twin in there and I fucking loved his route :P

Yoyoyoyoyoyo, good news maybe?? I am kinda back to writing the Kokichi fanfic, so there is a chance I might start posting updates again. No promises, but I did quite miss writing this, even though all of the mistakes and cringe I noticed in the chapters now. I had so so many plans for it, and sadly all I was able to get to while I was still writing was the very beginning. But who knows, maybe I will be able to catch up :D somehow...

Big sorry to whoever's reading this, please ignore this if easily triggered :c 
          
          This is a little of a vent but jeez. So much shit happened and it's all just layering. My sister is dead, all my friends forgot about me and some asshole guy who I was in a god knows what relationship with turns out to be a complete pervert and does not even pretend to care about me like he has promised for almost a year now. I just feel like Im losing everyone, being so forgettable. When my sister died (which was the reason I deleted my dumb fanfic), I was just hoping to just fall asleep and wake up where it all never happened. I struggled with addiction to things I won't even name and am still surprised i made it out alive. Because I met him. He was just like my sister. He said he was there to listen to me, to discuss nerdy things I liked, even admitted he hopes to help me accept what happened. It was so nice I believed in everything he said like an idiot and basically worshipped him, because he seemed to give me the bare minimum. I just wanted someone to love me and give me hope after the most important person to me planned her death and just left like that. I didnt even know she was going to die. And it just turns out that the person that was the reason that kept me from suicide, at the same time, valued me less than porn. He would look at it when we even played games after school ended for us both. Even when we would chat. And I'm scared to even think of the things he was doing while at it. And I'm so dumb to always come back to him after I get mad at him, too. Now is like that again. But Im just waiting for him to give me that little light of attention. That glimpse of love. But I'm sitting here like an idiot every day for god knows how many hours for him to talk about himself. And it pisses me off so much it still comforts me. He doesn't give a shit about me, but my standards are so low I get so so happy when someone says I mean something to them
          
           I just want to be loved man :c

I know what I will do for Christmas - I'll make a freaking xiao x reader fanfic cafe au fanfic

I'll give you all some advice - please skip your discord phase. I've stopped writing completely, got attached to some random guy on the internet and now it's the only thing I can think about. Delete your discords y'all and go outside with your irl friends.