Hey, a few years ago a small kitten me and my mom tried to rescue peacefully died in our kitchen, in my mom's hands. I had to watch him take his last few breaths...In my small village there is no vet, so we tried everything we could. Now I'd like to believe that he is playing with my other cats that "disappeared" and never came back home. Keep in mind that he is in a better place, happy to watch you from above <3 I know how you feel, getting attached to a pet and having to say goodbye in an instant. It is overwhelming and frustrating. I have lost many pets, another kitten was poisoned by one of my neighbours... I'm sure he enjoyed our small moments together. There is nothing you can do about it, but keeping you head up and smiling. I am sure your kitten felt loved and appreciated, you are not alone ❤️