han

i like him even more now 

oh dear God, i'm hating life again. i'm hating myself once again. this is the phase that i never want to enter again. please show me a way to be just fine. help me fighting all of this. i'm tired

okay since i've always updated about someone i like, so there you go fir the end of 2023
          
          
          i like someone, or even worse, i fall in love with him. it's not the look that he serve but that one side of him, made me think of him daily, nonstop. it was his smile, his laugh, his eyes, his gestures and the way he talk, i'm in love with all of that. shockingly this is the first time i'd ever like someone this long. it usually ends in a month. said that a lot but gonna say that again.
          
          every seconds of our interactions means a lot to me, and i emphasized it every single time. words cannot describe nor explain my feelings towards him
          
          xoxo, mey

i'm so fucked up lol HAHAHAHAHAH

yaudah kalau gitu

i told you i don't mind waiting, so please. come back. i'm waiting for you :/

i like him so much that it hurt when the thoughts of me liking the idea of him and not him might be real. oh i wish i wasn't hesitate in love but i've been hurt a lot. do i really.. like him? like really really? what if it was just my attachment issue acting up? what if it was bcs i'm craving for male's attention? what if, i really like him bcs of the imagination i've create about him? :/

almost a month????? 

i don't mind waiting for you‼️

i like you :((