littlestarsmiles

My agere story
When I was like 12 or 13 I started reading fanfics like most kids my age and I found out about dxlg and Mxlb. I realize I was a switch and I started doing my own research about this, but wasn't as smart as I though at completely clearing my search history because my mom found out time and time again. There was a situation when my mom found me wearing a pull-up and found my pacis and threw them away. Being the oldest of two sisters; the first born or as I like to call it the test dummy child doesn't really have it perks. I'm not saying that I have it worse then other but I age regress because I don't always wannabe the responsible one. Be responsible for my siblings actions or grades. Last year in October I went on an app called Kik and I meant my Daddy(B) {I don't wanna state this persons name for personal reasons} until like 3 weeks later my mom found out about it and made me break up with him over the phone. I cried myself to sleep for a week. I truly loved him but my mom said it was fake and he didn't care and it wasn't real. In February I had a irl relationship but he didn't try understand what the term daddy meant or little space...he would always say be big be big and when I was little he just wanted to spank me for fun he never made be do anything that I didn't want to do but he was my first kiss. A kid that I knew at an after school program I when to he understood me but my mom doesn't like him but we are and still are friends. I'm always scared to trust cgs because I have 2 a mommy and daddy leave me for no reason. I have creeps contact me. I just want to feel loved for my big and little space. Sadly not a lot of people understand they say that I'm adapting something that isn't truly me and my ex irl told me if you have a paci hided you should throw it out. I don't want to be sexual in little space, I just want to be loved. I'm a closeted little and hopefully when I go to college in the fall of 2020 I can be my true self.💞