@itz-kiaara
Heeey kiiitttiess.
How are you all?
I am feeling good. Lately. I have been so busy lately that I am not able to come here. I went back to my studies. Like my study haven't started yet but I am preparing for it in advance.
It feels great to be busy so I don't have anything to be worried.
How are you all?
I missed you all so much.
Kitties. Can you see the images in the chapter introduction of book "a walk to remember " ?
On my one cellphone it's showing.
But my second phone it's not..
Can you tell me if it's showing or not?
Remember it?
https://www.wattpad.com/story/378531483
Heyy.
How are you?
I have no words of thankfulness.
You were woth me when i broke down.
Thank you
I am feeling better.
This loss will always hurt us. We would always miss her but she was loved and will always be loved forever.
Thank you again for being with me..
I am coming back to my normal routine slowly.
But i can't thank you all enough for your words, care and worry and love.
Thank you
@itz-kiaara Hey, How are you now? I hope you are taking care of yourself . How is the atmosphere at your home now? I hope better than before Take care.
@AnishaJain21 I am okay. The memories kept coming again and again. My mom isn't good. She keeps crying and crying . Staring at her pics... Of course she was her mother. . Will take time to heal. It is better. But we live far from my granny house . My mother is regretting why she didn't rush there when she got to know my granny is asking to meet her and was sick... the burden of regret is heavy then the loss one. And yes You too ..
Hey..
Kitties..
How are you all? We came back to our house today.. it was harsh . Today is 5th day my granny is gone.
All are mourning.. it feels so fresh. What's all that? It feels so strange. When I was at my granny house. I was distracted because everyone was there. But I am here alone in my room. I still can't believe she is gone. I just can't. They all are just laying . She fought with so many diseases, accidents so bravely. I believe she is going to come back from hospital. She is goin to call my mother. My mother will talk so much and I will just admire them from a far.
She was loved. My mom was her favourite daughter because she was eldest.
My mom knew I haven't accepted this. She tried to force me to go to graveyard and saw her name on that.
I won't go...
Why would I go? She is alive. . All are just doing Bullshit. Hiding her so they can take her property right?
I am sorry kitties. I am not in my right state.
I am just so sorry. It's not a good point. I hate myself for not being expressive. I was trying to open. I wanted to go to her. Talk to her. But I always felt I am not good enough. I regret every second. I wasn't good in this.
I just don't know how long I can bear this. It's killing me.. I wasn't loved by her .she had her favourites. But for me it was enough that she give me smile but kiss my other siblings cheeks.
It was enough.
It would be better she just come back from hospital and just smile. I don't want anything.
Wattpad is my healing part. Unfortunately I don't have anyone haha.. I ping you a lot.
Ignore it.
I just wanted to take it out before it hurt me more.
Please show your love .. you may regret please
@itz-kiaara heyyyy, please take care of ur health I know how it feels when u loose someone bcoz I also lost my granny this year U will have to be strong for urself, u will definitely overcome this situation and don't think too much about negative things Please rest up well and eat up well
@itz-kiaara you have us don't worry even though we actually can't help you by being physically but know that we're always there virtually and emotionally ,,, we're all out lowest at sometimes but we're strong and braver than others that's why we can survive out of this and we can move on i know it'll take time maybe more than what you expect but it'll all be healed after that... i know what losing someone feels like especially grannies, i lost mine too and i was like a stone that time, i couldn't feel anything other than numbness everyone cried i couldn't, i didn't i just couldn't believe the fact that she is gone and she would never smile to me , laugh with me,feed me or got feed by me and those little moments with her won't happen again, but when everyone left and i became alone i totally broke down later i make myself understand that if i cry or become sad like that my granny won't be happy either so i learnt to let go i know that I'll cherish the memories, she'll always with me in my heart so why crying and being sad , she won't want that, right ?! so i suggest you that you pray for her that she will be happy where she is at now , she suffered a lot , right?! then she deserves to be happy now ,, even if you are not her favorite but she's still your granny and she won't be happy knowing her one child is not happy and suffering,,, so cherish the memories I'm sure she's in your heart always so pray for her and do pray for yourself, this tough time will pass but always the scars remains but don't do something reckless while you're sad, please you're strong and you can overcome this painful time like you overcome past times , so hang on for a while and know that you're strong you're worthy you're not alone you've got us , we'll got over this painful time together I'll pray for you to get better and also I'll pray for your granny too take proper care of yourself and eat and rest well also don't think about too negative things
@itz-kiaara Hey , complicated grief, painful emotions are so long lasting and severe that you have trouble recovering from the loss and resuming your own life. Yes she is there not physically but you will feel her presence The favouratisim hurts I know the most when you are trying your 100 % but still not reciving even the half of it But even just a smile can make you feel warm take it as a blessing from her When my grandma passed away I felt the same, as if I am the worst grandaughter for not spending enough time with her but{ time is never enough} . even today it makes me upset that time I just say a prayer in my mind for her and apologize . Life is all about keep going no other option will help It takes a lot of time to heal and come back to normal take your time . You don't need to forget her and you never will but look forward to the new day waiting with all the memories of the HAPPY times you have spend together Try not to overthink about negative things Take care of your health don't ignore your medicines, eat well. Bye
Kitties.. I am sorry it's not doing good for me.
@itz-kiaara condolences. I hope you can get through this. Sunshine comes after the rain, hold on.
Heey kitties. Why suffering aren't ending....
My granny died on Friday..
I am not okay.
So I might be gone.
Take care
@itz-kiaara Heartfelt condolences. May your grandma rest in peace. Her soul is in a better place and safe with god and You're not alone. Lean on loved ones, take time to heal. My grandma passed away this year too I know how bad it feels for not being able to spend more time with them. I don't know about sufferings but you have to keep going Hang in there . I hope that the time will heal everything Take your time . stay safe and sound Take care of your health and your family . Also if you feel like crying don't hold back . Take care.
Heeeyyy ma kitties.
Came here to tell in case you are waiting
I am feeling a lot low . As some know.. I have a very ..birth problem. I told you in winter my breathing problem increase. Since yesterday it's on top. I took immediate medication but it have side effects..
It put my body to close to hibernation. I want to interact with you all. But I am so low on energy.
I love love winter but my heart doesn't let Mr enjoy it...
But I'll come back as soon as I get energy okay?
And to kitties who have any medical condition.. don't avoid it.
Okay?
Stay safe. Stay healthy.
@itz-kiaara I can feel that you need a long and a peacefull break Try to give yourself some peace of mind don't overthink , take your medications on time usually strong medicines and antibiotics have strong effects which make you feel dizzy and weak but you have stay strong . Eat healthy , stay hydrated and rest well Then get back to your daily routine when you are ready Don't hurry too much okay? Take care. Bye
Heey kitties. As I promied
https://www.wattpad.com/story/378531483
Hey kitties..
Today marked 14 whole books to be completed by me. It was a looong journey.
Very long.
I am thinking to add a portfolio page at the start of my books. Because I myself saw and read many plots of my books just like copy pasted.
They didn't even gave me a credited .
My books are being copyrighted and on one I saw whole book, and even the cover being published in other language.
That's not fair. And not being credited it's so upsetting.
So I put my books update pause for some time.
.
A happy news is that
What I put a notification about is that
I am going to make a taejin book . The version 2 of the book "BREATH"
The story plot at start will maybe same . Or totally different.. I don't know.
I'll post the first chapter on Monday.
A new thrill.
I am excited to see how it goes
So stay tuned.
@Jin9102000 oh I changed the name. I am sorry . Search in my profile with name "Forever Heart"
@Jin9102000 aww thank you. I made bottom jk for a change.. it might didn't get much success but it was a progress in my career..
@itz-kiaara what's the definition of successful story author nim???? You said "for you " wasn’t a success!!!!!!