itszara023

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My life was never easy. I spend my life wishing for things to get better. Little did I know my happiness was always short lived. Like the fate had a challenge with me. Like being happy was forbidden to me. Right now I am in such a dark place. I need someone to help me, understand me, care for me and hold my hand. I am trying to walk, but my legs are broken. I try to crawl, my arms are wounded. I try to act cool, I try to act like I do not give a shit. But deep down I am breaking myself over and over again much more hard this time. I am mad at myself because I am doing the same mistakes over and over again. I want my life to be easy just for once. I want everything to go smooth just for once. And I hate myself for wanting such things. It makes me feel weak but deep down I want to be weak. I am tired of being strong.  I want to know why did I turn this way. I want to know why everything is so hard for me.

itszara023

this message may be offensive 
My life was never easy. I spend my life wishing for things to get better. Little did I know my happiness was always short lived. Like the fate had a challenge with me. Like being happy was forbidden to me. Right now I am in such a dark place. I need someone to help me, understand me, care for me and hold my hand. I am trying to walk, but my legs are broken. I try to crawl, my arms are wounded. I try to act cool, I try to act like I do not give a shit. But deep down I am breaking myself over and over again much more hard this time. I am mad at myself because I am doing the same mistakes over and over again. I want my life to be easy just for once. I want everything to go smooth just for once. And I hate myself for wanting such things. It makes me feel weak but deep down I want to be weak. I am tired of being strong.  I want to know why did I turn this way. I want to know why everything is so hard for me.