theviolentheart

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Dear ex-bestfriend,
          i don't want you as an ex bestfriend... i want you as my best friend... i want you back..so I'm 'publicly' apologizing for all the shit i apparently did publicly as well... I'm sorry... I'm sorry for not supporting you... for not being there even though i promised that i always will be....for being a bitch to you.. but I'm definitely not sorry for being angry and hurt as fuck...and you know it better than anyone that i loose my senses in anger but i miss you...i have always missed you  but  you know my anger and stubbornness is wayyyyy huge than anything else i feel but again i always come around...you should know that better than anyone else in this world ... yes you took the D away from her rou and didn't even ever thought of contacting her again  but i can't possibly take eva away from her sarah..no matter how much or how hard i try... maybe we weren't but they're inseparable, but maybe and only maybe even we aren't... i don't wanna remember "you" when i listen to the song "to my ex best friend" because that spot is already taken so don't you dare try to take that spot. again I'm sorry for being a hugeee bitch to you though that's nothing you don't already knew about me...so it's a humble request to leave the spot of  my ex-bestfriend and re-take the old one...you know the one I've promised to reserve for only and only you on your birthday last year? with a line.. no one can ever replace you...not in scl nd definitely not in college??? so try to maybe forgive and forget these three months we wasted? or just block me for once and all. 
          
          your's one and only bitch of an ex-bestfriend.

insanelycrazy90

@theviolentheart You were and can never be my ex-bestfriend. I never had any real friend, I would never have any, it's only you I had and will always have. Every freaking day, I missed you. There wasn't a single day that went by, when I didn't thought about how you were doing, when I didn't wanted to contact you but I knew you were mad and you might say something which you wouldn't even mean but it would hurt so much and I would just go into that stupid stupid shell again where I would curse myself for everything that happened. I'm sorry, for leading us to here. I'm sorry, Im not being everything you had wanted. I'm sorry for being such a mess. That song is one messed up thing as well!!! And I can never take the D from her Rou, nor the Sarah from her Eva!! No one can!! Never!!!!
            I always knew this was real, it just couldn't end, I would tell myself everyday, what we'd was unlike all the friendships, it was just so precious and it was 'ours' and that I would find a way to get it all together just like before. Those three months were the worse, I tried to accept them but I couldn't, I would break down like now! Please come back, because I can't leave you, ever ! 
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imdifferentthanu

Happy Birthday, darling  <3 <3

imdifferentthanu

@imdifferentthanu You're welcome! 
            
             
            When'll you update next tho? 
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theviolentheart

Happy Birthday to my IRREPLACEABLE friend, 
          Anyone can not replace you ever....not in school, not in college and not anywhere else! 
          Friends come and go, but first time in my lifetime, I found a person who's imagination is as impossible as me, who's dreams are as crazy as me and who finds meaning in every crazy and crappy thing I say and who is always ready to do any kind of work with me even if it's sooooooooooo FREAKING CRAZY that people can put us in mental asylum for it! The only person with whom I was actually able to share all those things.
          
          You know everything about me, the crappy me, the crazy me, the short tempered me, the sometimes bitchy me, the swear a lot me, and I even act like a douche sometimes but u still decide to be my best friend... you are a deeply disturbed woman, you know that right? 
          
          Today is a day to celebrate you, 
          so, make it special and surround yourself with everything that makes you feel like the star you are! HAPPY BIRTHDAY to someone I hope is my friend even when we're too senile to remember each other's birthdays!! 
          
          ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

insanelycrazy90

@theviolentheart  I'm not running away ever! You're stuck! *smiles sheepishly with a evil glint* xD
            But hey, you can't threaten me, not at least today, it's ILLEGAL!!!! xD 
            
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theviolentheart

@insanelycrazy90 I'm not going anywhere!! it's kinda impossible...
            It's actually you who can do that! 
            So get this thing inside your skull! 
            You can't GO ANY WHERE WITHOUT ME!!!! Or else there will be bad VERY BAD!! consequences ;) take this as a threat if you want to.... you can't ever run away from me lol 
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insanelycrazy90

@theviolentheart Thankyou sooo freaking much!!!! 
             Idk what to say rn, cuz I'm literally lost for words (ik I'm weird)xD Now, you mean much more to me than any friend or anyone for that matter! I'm sooo freaking glad I found you! We should've actually met 10 months after you were born, you know that right? WHERE WERE YOU??! XDD
            But now that we finally met, don't go anywhere, okay? Im not letting you anyway xD We've to even go to a mental asylum once (a must that you mentioned it now xD)
            And our imagination isn't crazy(I guess xD), everyone else's just boring xDD
             
            This just added to my day, thanks again ♡♡ 
            
            P.S. It's exam tommorow, why me? 
            
            
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