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I felt like I failed to do my purpose to save those who I want to save... 
If I can't save anyone, what is my purpose here then? I'm useless. 
I can't exist without my purpose, I felt like I failed to save them, I felt like I failed to do what I promised them what I would do..
I'm sorry, I tried my best, but it seems like I couldn't save you all, if I can't save them, how can I save myself? Right, I can't..
I hope that my first attempt will succeed, for now, I thank you all for everything you have done and for being there for me. It hurts to go, but I have lost my fight with my problems and thoughts. This time, I really won't be here anymore, I'm sorry but I don't want to believe that I can be saved anymore, I'll read a few more stories, my favorite ones, before I do it.
Good night everybody, thank you all for staying till the end, it's hard to keep up with life anymore..
The amount of pills I'll take should be enough.
Also, this is for my friends, not for strangers, I can't tell them this directly since I'm scared that they'll try to stop me. But this is my decision, I truly want to disappear.
It's scary, I'm scared to even do this but at the same time, I'm relieved, I won't have to deal with my problems anymore, even if I end up in hell, I wouldn't care, sure, I'll be scared, but it's better than being alive and suffering even more from my problems.
I'm sorry, I really am. I hope I succeed, and goodnight forever.