ech0st

“I’m doing good now, I can finish writing the chapter this week”
          	
          	They did not, in fact, write that week.

ech0st

GUYS IM ALIVE AND WANNA SAY ADULT LIFE IS NOT POGGERS,,, but at least I have my own place now :D
          
          also I graduated! (late but shhhh) and if I could graduate super late then you can do that thing you’re putting off,,, you got this!

ech0st

@emo_grinch_ thanks,,, I’m really happy you’re alive too and I’m proud of you for staying alive :]
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ech0st

Forgot to say but I’m probably gonna revise the book before updating it, but am alive so will do that this week :]
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ech0st

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I don’t wanna do anything anymore. I don’t wanna die, I just wanna stop existing. I’m not gonna pass my classes. Im not gonna graduate or get a degree. I’m not gonna finish my fucking album. I’m not gonna finish that stupid animation. I’m not gonna finish editing that video. If could, I would just stop everything. I wouldn’t be used and manipulated by the guy who fucking touched me as a kid. I wouldn’t eat one more fucking bite. I wouldn’t think about how I feel anymore. I just wanna stop. 

ech0st

Oh wow I never saw this reply,,, thank you so much! Really thanks. I probably woulda pushed away help at the time but I’ve gotten better since then and haven’t had such a bad depressive episode since then :) 
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peachesntrees

@ech0st I know that these are just words and I'm so sorry that I didn't check sooner, but can I maybe help you? Are you comfortable sharing more or could you maybe let me know that you're safe? I'm sorry, I know I'm probably bothering you and coming off as fake, I probably wouldn't even respond if I were in your shoes, but I do really care and would love to do anything I can, within reason, if you'd like.
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ech0st

There is no legitimate reason I matter. No one would miss me. I sorta try to reach out, no one cares. They just leave me on read. It’s fine, I don’t deserve anything anyways, but it still kinda stings. Just confirms I really don’t matter. I really don’t.