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And here I am again
          To the place where I used to feel alive
          Every pages were my lifeline
          And the stories made my heart pumping
          Giving me the pleasure of living 

I lost something that I didn't know was a part of me.

Now I'm certain. You're not the love of my life,
          You're the karma with the unexpected strike.

You made me believe that what we have was true.

Maybe I'm just like anybody else, 
          Like the women you used to date
          Same words that makes me insane
          But in the end would put me in shame. 

Painful truths began to thunder
          electrifying all the delusions inside my head
          
          Why on earth did I let my self slipped away
          from the uncontrollable phenomenon -- reality
          
          Hurricanes are never wonderful, foolishness made me believe such fatal fantasy
          
          Even the clouds does not agree, as every raindrop serves as a reminder
          
          Reminding that when something out of your league came down just to meet you is tragedy
          
          And it's sad to admit that while he's pouring everything like the rain, the chemistry between us is nullified by the casualties
          
          No trace of serenity.

His voice sounds like a lullaby
          That even my demons calmed down
          
          His touch feels like the morning breeze
          The thing that will wake you up from a nightmare
          
          His eyes, oh those dazzling eyes
          It will burn all your insecurities as his lens only sees your beauty
          
          His awkwardly shaped hands
          What a perfect fit to mine
          
          His feet is like big foot's
          The longer the strides, the farther we go
          
          There's so much in him that I am fascinated about
          And maybe that's the reason why I'm so head over heels
          Madly in love...
          
          He's worth the risk. <3
          

I don't understand that despite the doubt boiling inside of me, I'm still risking everything. 

Life is injecting confusions right through my veins and I can't help myself but yelp in pain. 

Zzzzz