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to everyone affected by jonghyun’s death:
          	
          	hey, i know this has come late. 
          	
          	i was denying his death the whole time since i got to knew this news thru a coworker while i was working. 
          	
          	ytd night, many cried, had mixed feelings and emotions, and even committed suicide. 
          	
          	now, looking at all the idols attending his funeral, fainting, shinee members behaving this way— death has never been more clear to me. 
          	
          	i started crying. 
          	
          	but then, i made a bad choice. 
          	
          	i started listening to shinee’s songs, and let me tell you this, i couldnt breathe. 
          	
          	not because i was stunned by their music or anything in a good way (ive been stunned long ago), i was suffocating on air. 
          	
          	perhaps how jonghyun felt before he ended his young, inspiring life. 
          	
          	i want to call out those who are fighting the demons in their hearts— pls, just please talk to people about it. 
          	
          	there are people out there who are willing to help. 
          	
          	suicide may be a way for one to escape the torturing life he or her is going through, but the fact that it is selfish is not going to be slept on. 
          	
          	till now, 100+ shawols have alr taken their dear lives. 
          	
          	death is not a joke. 
          	
          	can we just stop this? 
          	
          	to all of you reading this— 
          	pls, please stay strong and we will get through this together; for our star shining so brightly in the dark dark night, kim jonghyun. 
          	
          	— authornim jess.