Why do people think that my life is easy just because I smile all the time, they think that I don't have to deal with any problems just because I put on a smile on my face, only if they knew that sometimes it hurts me more when I smile than when I cry, I wish there was someone who would be there to talk to me and comfort me whenever I talked about my problems even though I have many friends I still feel lonely, I always end up being the second choice this makes me think that everyone around me hates me and talk behind my back, everywhere I look I see people laughing and enjoying there time with their friends and families meanwhile I always end up feeling alone even in crowded place I don't even know what to do in my life anymore, I wonder what it would be like if I just disappeared, maybe people will be alot more happier and would have less burden on themselves. I don't even know why I am talking about these things here but I just need a place to vent and this the only place I could find, think of me as an attention seeker or whatever you guys want, maybe I'm an attention seeker because I want people to notice me too and notice that I'm slowly losing myself, I just want to let everyone know that just because I smile doesn't mean that I am happy on the inside too