anikanotfound

hello wattpad,
          	thank you for deciding to read this. 
          	i’ve been gone for a bit and now it’s time for me to speak my thoughts. 
          	i will discontinue my books. i won’t check for messages anymore. i’ll still read other books though. reading is making me happy. 
          	
          	i’m sorry to disappoint you all. just 2 years ago i was sure i’d get to the 1000 chapters, but now i know i won’t. it’s been a pleasure to have met so many cool people. thank you for everything!
          	
          	when thea died, a part of me on wattpad died as well. and now misty is gone too. one month ago, my best friend gave up our friendship.
          	when i woke up today, my phone was full of notifications. notifications that said that technoblade, one of my favorite minecraft youtubers, had died. i watched the video on his channel and went speechless. i’m still speechless. i can’t believe he’s actually gone. 
          	
          	[rest in peace. cancer is one of the worst things that i know. especially for everyone who had to experience it and maybe died from it, including my brother who has got cancer twice. fortunately he survived, but he’ll never recover completely and he’ll never be the same as before. that’s just horrible and nobody deserves something like that. i hope you all are healthy and safe.]
          	
          	losing all these important people has affected us all. i just can’t take this anymore, and i’m sorry for that. i wish i could be here for you all.
          	well, i guess i have to spend the summer holidays to find happiness again. 
          	
          	maybe in a few weeks, months or even years, i’ll be back. who knows yet? i guess we have to give things time.
          	
          	with that, this is my goodbye. again, thank you for everything. sorry for all of my apologies. stay safe, take care of yourself and love yourself. you deserve it.
          	
          	much love, ani

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@eineqvalle @anikanotfound 
          	  From both of your texts I just got tears in my eyes. Most of the times I‘m good with words but now I would hug you because it‘s the one thing that sometimes can do more than words <3
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eineqvalle

@anikanotfound oh Ani, it makes me so sad to hear that a wonderful person like you has to go through so much suffering. i've seen the last video by technoblade's father and even though i haven't watched any videos of him before, it brought me to tears. rest in peace, Alex, he seemed to be such an inspiring, amazing person. he'll live forever in our memories. 
          	  cancer isn't fair. nobody deserves to experience it. i really hope that your brother will be able to find joy and happiness in his life, again, but i don't wanna make any assumptions and i don't wanna pretend as if i knew what was and still is going on in him and you, because i don't know. i wish him and all your family members only the best, stay strong, you're getting through this! 
          	  remember, Anileinilein, that I'm always here for you. take as much time as you need, please don't feel obliged to do anything as for example answering your notifications on Wattpad, just focus on yourself. even if it takes years, don't give up. you deserve all the lofe of this life. hopefully, you'll find some happiness during the summer holidays. wish you only the best, love you, stay strong and safe, i do believe in you. <3
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anikanotfound

hello wattpad,
          thank you for deciding to read this. 
          i’ve been gone for a bit and now it’s time for me to speak my thoughts. 
          i will discontinue my books. i won’t check for messages anymore. i’ll still read other books though. reading is making me happy. 
          
          i’m sorry to disappoint you all. just 2 years ago i was sure i’d get to the 1000 chapters, but now i know i won’t. it’s been a pleasure to have met so many cool people. thank you for everything!
          
          when thea died, a part of me on wattpad died as well. and now misty is gone too. one month ago, my best friend gave up our friendship.
          when i woke up today, my phone was full of notifications. notifications that said that technoblade, one of my favorite minecraft youtubers, had died. i watched the video on his channel and went speechless. i’m still speechless. i can’t believe he’s actually gone. 
          
          [rest in peace. cancer is one of the worst things that i know. especially for everyone who had to experience it and maybe died from it, including my brother who has got cancer twice. fortunately he survived, but he’ll never recover completely and he’ll never be the same as before. that’s just horrible and nobody deserves something like that. i hope you all are healthy and safe.]
          
          losing all these important people has affected us all. i just can’t take this anymore, and i’m sorry for that. i wish i could be here for you all.
          well, i guess i have to spend the summer holidays to find happiness again. 
          
          maybe in a few weeks, months or even years, i’ll be back. who knows yet? i guess we have to give things time.
          
          with that, this is my goodbye. again, thank you for everything. sorry for all of my apologies. stay safe, take care of yourself and love yourself. you deserve it.
          
          much love, ani

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@eineqvalle @anikanotfound 
            From both of your texts I just got tears in my eyes. Most of the times I‘m good with words but now I would hug you because it‘s the one thing that sometimes can do more than words <3
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eineqvalle

@anikanotfound oh Ani, it makes me so sad to hear that a wonderful person like you has to go through so much suffering. i've seen the last video by technoblade's father and even though i haven't watched any videos of him before, it brought me to tears. rest in peace, Alex, he seemed to be such an inspiring, amazing person. he'll live forever in our memories. 
            cancer isn't fair. nobody deserves to experience it. i really hope that your brother will be able to find joy and happiness in his life, again, but i don't wanna make any assumptions and i don't wanna pretend as if i knew what was and still is going on in him and you, because i don't know. i wish him and all your family members only the best, stay strong, you're getting through this! 
            remember, Anileinilein, that I'm always here for you. take as much time as you need, please don't feel obliged to do anything as for example answering your notifications on Wattpad, just focus on yourself. even if it takes years, don't give up. you deserve all the lofe of this life. hopefully, you'll find some happiness during the summer holidays. wish you only the best, love you, stay strong and safe, i do believe in you. <3
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anikanotfound

love y’all so much :(

xNightinxgale

@anikanotfound Yes, die Sommerferien stehen in ein paar Wochen an, endlich :} Naw thank you, wirklich lieb von dir <3
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anikanotfound

@xNightinxgale that sucks, but it’ll get better :) i believe in you<3
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xNightinxgale

@anikanotfound Naw <3 That‘s cool, I‘m a little stressed right now because of school but in general I‘m fine :}
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