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would anyone be interested in my password so they could take over the account? i’m not feeling motivated enough to work on the lams story anymore, and i know you guys really like it.

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ctrl by sza is an album that means everything to me. it’s been with me for the whole summer, the whole shitshow of a summer, and for the first two months of this school year. i just started out listening to the weekend, love galore and garden (say it like dat), then from there it just evolved. when i got in a fight with my ex i would accidentally let the weekend skip to drew barrymore on shuffle. when we broke up i found 20 something. when the school year started, and i saw my crush from 6th grade all over again, i found broken clocks, doves in the wind and go gina. as the crush progressed and i realized he didn’t actually care about me, i was listening to wavy and it flowed into anything. when i heard pretty little birds i was having an awful week. i was depressed out of my mind, i couldn’t calm down, and i couldn’t get turned on. i was on the bus and it came on, and i instantly got chills. that night, for the first time that week, i slept and was rested. now, i have a crush on a boy younger than me. i never really listened to supermodel for some odd reason, and it came on a radio for my sad love songs playlist. that’s when i knew this album was written for me. there were pangs of my summer boyfriend, and i could feel his trust issues. now, as i sit listening to it, i think more about him. but i can’t. the boy younger than me likes me, is funny, sweet, and i could even be his supermodel. this isn’t supposed to be about me. i have yet to hear normal girl, but i know it’ll have its place for me. some beautifully tragic thing will happen that sza can glorify with her voice. it’s a personal album to her and me, and i love it. thank you solona, for writing.

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august; halfway done
           
          1️⃣ super mario world - logic
          2️⃣ make her say - kid cudi (ft. kanye west)
          3️⃣ molly - lil dicky (ft. brendon urie)
          4️⃣ teenager in love - madison beer
          5️⃣ yuck - logic
          6️⃣ honey - kehlani 
          7️⃣ candlelight - zhavia ward
          8️⃣ my beloved - mansionz
          9️⃣ blazed - ariana grande (ft. pharrell williams)
           theif - ansel elgort

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august so far;
          1️⃣cocoa butter kisses - the stairwells 
          2️⃣you should see me in a crown - billie eilish
          3️⃣supernova - ansel elgort
          4️⃣is there any love - kid cudi 
          5️⃣best part (ft h.e.r.) - daniel ceaser 
          6️⃣go gina - sza 
          7️⃣uno - rex orange county
          8️⃣skin - dijon 
          9️⃣get you (ft. kali uchis) - daniel ceaser

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i met the twins in a dream last night and like i was with my friend emma and we went up to them and asked if they were the dolans and grayson just got up and hugged me and i started crying and ethan picked me up and hugged me and kept telling me i was okay and i woke up crying and then fell back asleep and had a dream about the mystery machine being in the driveway thank you for coming to my ted talk