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As I'm mostly on Wattpad like a writer and reader j don't post usually here.
*Deep inhale*
I don't feel like myself anymore. Days fly one by one and I feel like I did nothing. I just twitch in place. I do nothing. Wattpad was place where I could relax and just be myself. I feel like j can't be that anymore. Just little by little I can't find my silent place, my excitement to write my joy in music. As I sit on my bed in darkness and alone I realize I'm not in my best place. My mind just wants so many things but my body is lifeless. I don't know how I got here. The person I felt understood me the most is not talking with me. I always find it funny how people can easily switch you from your life. Like we don't need you anymore, delete. Like that. I just feel hopeless and I don't know what to do. As my family is not familiar with the way I feel and they wouldn't understand me I turn to myself more and more. My mother asks me why are you so sad every day. What to say I feel like you are parting with me, I can't tell you anything. My father just doesn't believe in the emotional shit. He thinks I want to make myself drama queen. I just want to be understood, but I can't find it anywhere. My sister and I fight constantly. And as the result I just hope music can take me out of this because there is no bigger joy for me than when I write. So people don't lose your understanding person. It helped me but as it was that person never wanted to help me as it represented itself. As a wealthy person they just wanted to use me.
So everyone here. I feel like I lost part of me and I can't settle on anything.
Lots of love.