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Guys.
If any of this turns out to be true, I might just have to stop posting.
These people have quite literally saved me.
Before I had someone who has been my life for the past 2 years, I had the dsmp. Dream, George, sapnap, Wilbur, Techno, bbh, Tommy, tubbo, Jack, etc.
I've had them for 4 years. Over the years, I've lost them slower and slower. I've been stuck with the Dreaam team. They've made me laugh so much. So, god damn much. They have been my hyperfixation for four years.
I used to tell people I had found Wilbur before the dsmp. And I did, but now all hope for him is lost.
I found dream next. Then george. Then sapnap. I found them all from each other. It was crazy at first that I was attached so quickly to grown men I haven't met, don't know, and now I may never hear from again.
I watched them to sleep, eat, if I wanted to draw or game, I'd listen to them in the background. The good days, where nothing bad ever happened.
Now I've lost Wilbur. Which, I've lost interest in him, and how he treats people on camera kinda freaked me out in a way. I was actually surprised my gut was right, but I let him go easily.
But just last night, I watched the three of them. The dteam. The people who saved my life in 2020. Saved me from my crazy e-girl phase and carried me back into my gamer phase. I haven't left that. Probably never will.
Ever since I found out what DNF was, anytime I see green and blue together, I internally giggle, even as a high-school kid, I giggle like a kid. I hear a quote from one of them, I smile as I remember the clips I took.
I can't let go just yet. It's going to be so fucking hard to let go if this is all real
I want this to be a nightmare. A sick, sick nightmare. I'd rather go back to 2020 with this knowledge and had the ability to warn them. Tell them to watch their backs with antis.
If you think im crazy for thinking like this, for "choosing sides" or just for speaking my mind, fuck you. Fuck. You.
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