Have you guys ever thought back to a time where you thought you did something really stupid and really wished whole-heartedly that you could go back in time and fix it?
I think and do that all the time.
Just the other day, I thought back to a time where my friend was real sad about not being able to finish a test on time because of a strict teacher (mind you, that teacher gave her only 30 minutes to finish a test where others got almost an hour because she had to make the test up that day). I already knew that I was bad at comforting people -- I still am -- but everyone was telling me to go and help comfort her, and how could I say no when I also really wanted to do something too to help her feel better? I care about her a lot -- she's a great friend :). Anyway, so I went to go help her, or I tried to, because I didn't know the right thing to say (due to experiences that make me cringe and feel guilty on the inside). So we just stood in silence. I tried to make her smile, but I was feeling very awkward too. In the end, I really didn't do much, and I still regret and feel guilty about it to this day. So I was thinking back to it yesterday, and I imagined a whole exchange of what I could've said to her (which were ultimately way better) instead of the stupid things I really did say that day.
I have many more experiences like so. Every time, I believe I said the wrong thing, and it made me feel so guilty. That's why I try not to say anything now because I'm afraid it'll come out the wrong way. I'm just not that good at comforting people...
And honestly.
Am I a bad friend for what I did?
I don't know anymore....
Anyway, sorry for this dump on you all. I just felt like saying it because I really don't know much myself on this topic. Honestly, I'm such a hypocrite....
Hope you all have a great rest of your lives!!!! <3