StarDreamer17

Merry Christmas  I hope everyone had a wonderful day! 

OhTequilaMockingbird

What happened to some of your stories? O.o (if you don't mind me asking? I rather liked the warrior and spitfire ones. Maybe the 3rd missing one too if I remember it if the title is revealed to me lol (it says 5 stories are published and only 2 show. That is how I kno2 their is a 3rd that was deleted or unpublished or whatever option(s) wattpad has. I alas have no psychic powers though that would be pretty rad if I did, haha). 
          
          Anyways, this is just a question. I am not meaning to try and pressure you to bring them back and/or continue them if that is not your intent. I feel it is an authors right  - well when not being paid to write - to discontinue a work if they chose to for whatever reason they see fit. 
          
          Like I'm personally just kinda lazy and have no time management so me writing a story and finishing it would be practically impossibe. There's no sugar coating it for me. I'm basically a human potato. Or sometimes when I'm attempting to write, I lose interest in the topic, get a case of writers block I can't seem to get over, or I just get bored of writing/the plot... which differs in losing interest as i view the general topic and plot as kind a different.. but eh, kind a still repeated myself... but whatever, haha... 
          
          Just elaborating to emphasize I respect your decison whatever it may be that you decide to do (or not do) with your stories, but I'm shamefully a little nosey *puts head in dirt like an ostrich* *muffled through dirt* but yeah I'm kinda curious why you took them down and of it's for good or What? Again. Just curious. I'm not gonna judge the answer, if I get one. It's within your rights not to tell me of course. And I would respect that decision as well!

StarDreamer17

@OhTequilaMockingbird There was in fact five, the two mentioned and 'a just about me/ tagged' one as well.
            For the general, I am like you and finishing something is near impossible for me. With Spitfire that was the case but for Warrior it is different; at the time I was very much struggling to live and so I created the book with the idea of "fighting for yourself" in mind but now I really don't have the fight and so writing about a character who does have the week to fight is kindav a slap to the face or rubbing in the fact I'm not at my best currently so I took them down because they weren't going anywhere anytime soon. Maybe I'll get them finished eventually but it won't be now.
            
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StarDreamer17

Hey can I ask you a question?
          It's kindav personal and triggering but I don't know anymore...
          I need help but I don't have anyone and I don't know. I need the pain to go away but I don't want to necessary kill myself but I need it to go away. I don't have anyone and I just went to my mom but that made it worse.
          Um I was curious about cutting, you wrote about it and I just was wondering if you knew if it helped at all. I know it wouldn't fix anything but at the moment I need some relief/ reprieve from the pain. I've been in a bad spot before- many times actually but I can't keep fighting this losing battle without something to help. I'm sorry I don't want to be a bother but right you seemed to be the only person I can even relate to I guess. The one shot, maybe I read to much into it- I don't know...
          I'm at the bottom of the barrel with my strength and I need something, I don't know what.
          I'm sorry, ignore this I guess, I just I don't want to give up just yet I guess after fighting for so long I don't want my pain to be a waste.
          I guess I'm trying to get someone to notice me- I just don't know who? Again I'm sorry
          
          (Thought to send this to someone but I don't want to be a bother, it's not fair to that individual so I'll leave this here.)
          Please note; I've done therapy, I've been on several medications, and yes I have talked to my parents... None of this has helped. If you want to know more I'll tell because I need to vent I guess. I don't expect anything from this, I just needed to get it out there because I can't hold it in anymore.
          
          Ever your lover,
          LK

StarDreamer17

@BlueRain_Princess004 thank you for your concern and your willingness to listen and for the follow it means the stars to me that you would go out of your way to do so. Thank you.
            -Isaac
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Blue_Dragun_Writes

@StarDreamer17  I know this is late and all but if you ever wanna talk i'm here, and I know you may not know me, but I swear I am just trying to help so hang in there.
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StarDreamer17

Guys...
          I really like my chair. . .
          
          
          Anyways! wanted to let everyone know somethings:
          First; summer is coming up and that gives me more free time so I'll be able to be on more so expect more updates!
          Second; I will be giving myself deadlines- the goal is to get stuff done by these set deadlines. Whatever is my current deadline can be found in my profile 'about me' at the bottom- so feel free to check it out!
          Third; I f***ing love my chair!!!! I've almost changed all of my profile pics to it. . .
          Should I be worried???
          Have a scintillating day (cgh* or night if your in my case) !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i'm sorry i really shouldn't be up this late let alone able to talk to others......)