SmolAsh14

[[Dear beloved followers,
          	This is goodbye, for the very last time. I am leaving Wattpad. Forever. This is not anyone's fault whatsoever, this is because I am at a very low point in my life. The entire truth that I am not afraid to share is that I am depressed and suicidal, I recently cut and I am not proud of it at all. I have decided to stop using things that are stressing me and are causing my self-esteem to drop, one of these being Wattpad, the stress to keep uploading stories and please the people that read my stories is too much for my mind to handle, and so in order to keep myself from hurting myself more than I already am, I'm leaving. I am not coming back to Wattpad, I am staying away from it due to the stress it is causing me. I am still using Reddit and Tumblr, links to my profiles there are in my bio now, so if any of you still want to keep in contact with me those are the things that I will still be using (Kinda). The reason I am still using these is because they son't cause me stress, as I hardly use them, and I well, as mentioned don't use them often. Wattpad is something I use a lot and I do way more stuff that hurt me, so I am leaving and trying to better my self-esteem. Well, I guess there's little left to say, I appreciate each and every one of you and I hope someday we meet again, that's all for now, stay sweet my friends, and for the final time,
          	Goodbye.]]

lonleyaybiss

@SmolAsh14 okay bye bye please stay safe even though I don’t know you that well I love you in a friendship non relationship kinda way ya know I want you to do what is best for you
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Lily_Flower_Garden

@SmolAsh14 Bye, Ash. Please stay safe. <3
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BaudelaireEnthusiast

@SmolAsh14  Goodbye I hope you do well in life and don't give up in what you want to do. I know this sounds sappy but I believe in you and am sad to see you go
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SmolAsh14

[[Dear beloved followers,
          This is goodbye, for the very last time. I am leaving Wattpad. Forever. This is not anyone's fault whatsoever, this is because I am at a very low point in my life. The entire truth that I am not afraid to share is that I am depressed and suicidal, I recently cut and I am not proud of it at all. I have decided to stop using things that are stressing me and are causing my self-esteem to drop, one of these being Wattpad, the stress to keep uploading stories and please the people that read my stories is too much for my mind to handle, and so in order to keep myself from hurting myself more than I already am, I'm leaving. I am not coming back to Wattpad, I am staying away from it due to the stress it is causing me. I am still using Reddit and Tumblr, links to my profiles there are in my bio now, so if any of you still want to keep in contact with me those are the things that I will still be using (Kinda). The reason I am still using these is because they son't cause me stress, as I hardly use them, and I well, as mentioned don't use them often. Wattpad is something I use a lot and I do way more stuff that hurt me, so I am leaving and trying to better my self-esteem. Well, I guess there's little left to say, I appreciate each and every one of you and I hope someday we meet again, that's all for now, stay sweet my friends, and for the final time,
          Goodbye.]]

lonleyaybiss

@SmolAsh14 okay bye bye please stay safe even though I don’t know you that well I love you in a friendship non relationship kinda way ya know I want you to do what is best for you
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Lily_Flower_Garden

@SmolAsh14 Bye, Ash. Please stay safe. <3
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BaudelaireEnthusiast

@SmolAsh14  Goodbye I hope you do well in life and don't give up in what you want to do. I know this sounds sappy but I believe in you and am sad to see you go
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SmolAsh14

[[So...
          I um have everything ready for me to leave...
          I've taken screenshots of everything I want to save...
          I have chapters ready to publish giving an explanation oh why I left...
          I have a new bio ready for me to use...
          I have the links to my other stuff that I will still use from time to time...
          And I've got a goodbye message ready to post...
          I honestly feel relieved...
          I'm relieved that I finally have the option to leave with explanation... 
          It's... Nice...
          So um...
          I'll probably post the goodbye letter and make the changes needed either late tonight or tomorrow...
          If any of you have anything to say to me before I go...
          Do say it now...
          Because I won't be logged in much longer...
          That's everything...
          Sorry...]]

BaudelaireEnthusiast

@SmolAsh14    I know you can't see this but we love you even if we don't know you and I don't know why I'm crying but I hope your happy with whatever your doing now
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Doodles_the_fander

@SmolAsh14 i'll miss you so much! You were a great friend and reader! I'll miss you a lot because you were the only one that reacts on my stories. Do you have any other way we could contact...?
            bye
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Lily_Flower_Garden

@SmolAsh14 Just be safe, and if you ever need to talk, I'm here.
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SmolAsh14

[[So uh...
          I have an announcement...
          So I might like leave Wattpad...
          Recently I've been put under a lot of heavy stress lately and a part of it is because of Wattpad...
          So I might leave...
          I'll probably publish a book full of ideas I never made that are free to take...
          Ideas I wanted to do so badly but couldn't...
          I'll still leave this account up...
          But I probably won't be active on it ever again...
          I'll probably sign out and eventually just forget my password...
          I'm still considering my choice but like...
          I'm probably gonna prepare to leave and if by like Saturday I guess I still wanna leave I probably will...
          I'll probably post links or something to stuff I still will slightly be active on...
          But um...
          Yeah that's about it...
          Sorry...]]

F_ckConsistency

@SmolAsh14 
            Why do I feel like this partially my fault, I mean it could just be my insecurities but-
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Doodles_the_fander

@SmolAsh14 ok, if wattpad is giving you lot's of stress, it's ok if you leave, but I'm gonna miss you
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QUEER0CITY

@SmolAsh14 It's okay, I support you :)
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SmolAsh14

this message may be offensive
[[I am legit so conflicted and rethinking today's choices-
          I started with re-exploring the South Park fandom and loving the fanart-
          Then it turned to me reading some Bunny (Butters x Kenny) fanfiction...
          Then it turned to Creek (Craig x Tweek) angst...
          Then it turned into me exploring the smut section...
          And now I'm reading about a drunk alpha Stan raping a omega Kyle (Omega-verse shit)-
          What the hell has my life come to?]]

SmolAsh14

[[*That moment when you realize that what @HotterTrash says on [Insert every single pronoun ever] announcements and the funny parts of [Insert every single pronoun ever] smut book is the only thing that ever actually makes you laugh anymore* Huh ._. I don't know if this is good or bad-]]

SmolAsh14

@HotterTrash [[I've almost choked to death from laughing while reading them before- 10/10 recommended to read them-]]
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HotterTrash

@SmolAsh14 my announcements are a wild ride, aren't they? 
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SmolAsh14

[[Songs that describe my life rn because I'm sad, stressed, and re-questioning my gender identity haha- The scale from 'It describes me 100%' aka (5) to 'It sort of describes me I think' aka (1)
          - Karma by AJR (4)
          - This Is Home by Cavetown (3)
          - Heather by Conan Grey (3)
          - Hate Myself by NF (10)
          - Let You Down by NF (4)
          - I'll Be Good by Jaymes Young (3)
          - Toxic Thoughts by Faith Marie (1000)
          - Bird Song by Florence + The Machine (5)
          - Bouquet by Ethan Jones (4)
          - Ugly Story by PhemieC (2)
          Man is it fun to be me- Haha- (Fr tho I do be questioning my gender again-)
          
          Ooo and bc I can- Have songs that are angsty for Sanders Sides-
          Roman: Am I Supposed To Apologize by Maria Mena
          Logan: Toxic Thoughts by Faith Marie (Yes I'm projecting onto Logan shut up-)
          Patton: Bouquet by Ethan Jones (oKaY maybe I'm projecting on Patton as well-)
          Virgil: GRRRLS by AViVA
          Janus: Two Birds by Regina Spektor
          Remus: I'll Be Good by Jaymes Young (mAyBe I'm projecting on him too but shush-)
          
          And bc I feel like crying now- That's all- haha- See you all when I vent again tomorrow because let's face it I have problems-]]

lonleyaybiss

@SmolAsh14 well I wish you luck on figuring out your gender
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