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Gah damn that was long lol. I dont care if yall read it or not, dont feel forced to just because im voicing my feeling at stuff, but the fact that i did release it to where multiple people who could understand can read it does help to ease my nerves. 
          If you do read my horrible attempt at expressing myself thank you. And if anyone can relate and wants to talk feel free to message me even if you dont know me, im always here to listen to anyone
          
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So i was at volleyball right? And we were practicing very basic spikes and stuff and it was fun. VB is always fun. But whenever we do a game my dad is on the sidelines with a frown judging me. If i look his way after i miss a serve or something he looks disappointed. I like winning of course but im there to have fun and learn. After VB my dad always says "you gotta call it" or "you could have gotten that". And i know that. I understand i make mistakes and im aware i need to improve. Practice will get me there and i DO practice. But i feel like im trying to meet HIS expectations when i shouldn't have to. Then i fumble over my own feet and i miss. I was off my game today and i dunno why, i mean we all have those days. But i don't wanna push myself for HIM so i don't feel bad about myself. I know he wants me to get better and maybe thats his way of saying that but it doesn't work for me. I wanna push myself and work hard for ME and my team so we can win not for someone else but i cant not care a bit because he's my dad. I view everyone on my team as a leg up from me and i work hard to be as good as them but i feel like it's in vain sometimes. I love VB with all my heart and i never wanna stop playing. But i dislike it immensely when i see my dad's face of disapproval. HE doesn't play VB and its hard sometimes, and when he tells me the things he usually does i try to tell him i don't like it but my mom jumps in each time and tells me to stop. She does tell him that he should not say those things but I want to be able to say i don't like it without getting cut off. In VB Coach tells us to get mad and hit the ball hard but i cant get MAD and that i only get sad or inferior almost. I just feel like he puts so much pressure on me without realizing. I NEED to be push out of my comfort zone sometimes or i might not do it myself, but he isn't doing it in the way that works for me. I love my teammates and they are amazing people but i feel like i weight them down sometimes.

Okay yall vent post comin up and it will be LONG. So long i have to send it separately. If it’s relatable tho comment lol. Im sure we’ve all felt it.

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Okay vent post but-
          
          WHY IS KOMOAKA SO UNDERRATED THERE IS LIKE NOTHING ABOUT THEM ANYWHERE. LIKE WHY?????? ITS SUCH A CUTE SHIP TOOO. SHOULD I TRY TO WRITE SMTH ABOUT THEM?? I WANNA ADD TO THE VERY FEW BOOKS ABOUT THEM IVE SEEN ON HERE.
          
          I WAS GONNA MAKE A LIBEROS CHAT FIC WHEN IM DONE WITH THE PRETTY SETTERS ONE SO ILL TRY THAT? BUT I MIGHT DO A SEPARATE BOOK OF JUST KOMOAKA IF YOU GUYS WANT????
          
          THEY JUST NEED MORE CONTENT! THEY HAVE LIKE NONE AND FOR WHAT?
          
          Okay i think im done

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