I had more trouble with myself than with any other;
I am the reserved one n keep my secrets to myself, cz i believe that the secret to be confided only to an equally trustworthy friend, the same conditions being imposed on him. And so from trustworthy friend to trustworthy friend the secret goes moving on round that immense chain, until finally it reaches the ears of just the very person or persons whom the first talker had expressly intended it never should reach. so i avoid to explore myself.
I'm very determined and stubborn. There's a desire in me that makes me want to do more and more, and to do it right. Each one of us has a fire in our heart for something. It's our goal in life to find it and to keep it lit. I'm gonna have to develop myself. I'm just going to do the best that I can do. If I didn't define myself for myself, I would be crunched into other people's fantasies for me and eaten alive.
If you complain that I speak too much of myself, I complain that you do not even think of yourselves. 
Its really difficult and hard job to describe "feelings" in words but sometimes or in some ways poetry or poetic language can help us to exaggerate ourselves. so my first companion in my aloofness is my poetry whenever i get disturbed, feel alone and finding myself in hazardous shake, i just start playing with words and emotions and it really provides me pleasure & peace. its just the formula of catharsis which i usually do and finds it very beneficial. my poems are not for people but for the one man,, so i never tried it to check again and again, i never check the rhythm twice, because the rhythm which comes first in my mind is my heart's voice. i could have many flaws even in my single poem but that flaws are just OK to me because i don't need any appreciation or certification. what i need is just give voice to my feelings.