RagusChaos

Drown in bitter sadness, sickened with regret
          	Drunken from despair, wondering if this is all you get. 
          	You're standing in the fire, but the cold of loneliness won't let the heat soak through.
          	
          	The whispers only torment, kicking you around
          	Visions leave you no rest, so your dragging on the ground
          	You laugh at your own misery, its all that's left of you. 
          	
          	Some folks might want to comfort, but its more weight than you can bare. 
          	Most only stop to mock, spit on you or stare
          	But there judging doesn't matter, anymore than what you tell yourself is true.
          	
          	The memory of all those faces won't leave you alone 
          	The desperation's gripping, grinding at your bones
          	You'd die for isolation, but there's no hiding from you.
          	
          	Those long and lonely nights you ponder, where it all went wrong
          	Nothing gives you comfort, there's no sense of feeling home
          	So you smoke another cigarette, you drink and wish it were through.

RagusChaos

Drown in bitter sadness, sickened with regret
          Drunken from despair, wondering if this is all you get. 
          You're standing in the fire, but the cold of loneliness won't let the heat soak through.
          
          The whispers only torment, kicking you around
          Visions leave you no rest, so your dragging on the ground
          You laugh at your own misery, its all that's left of you. 
          
          Some folks might want to comfort, but its more weight than you can bare. 
          Most only stop to mock, spit on you or stare
          But there judging doesn't matter, anymore than what you tell yourself is true.
          
          The memory of all those faces won't leave you alone 
          The desperation's gripping, grinding at your bones
          You'd die for isolation, but there's no hiding from you.
          
          Those long and lonely nights you ponder, where it all went wrong
          Nothing gives you comfort, there's no sense of feeling home
          So you smoke another cigarette, you drink and wish it were through.

RagusChaos

For the ones 
          Who stand together 
          All at once
          We are alone
          
          Tip the tides
          Crash forever 
          Skip the turn
          All skin and bones
          
          Falling away
          Never loose your wonder
          Falling away 
          When all you know is right
          Here we stay
          Never dig for plunder
          All we have is in the night.
          
          Who you are
          You set asunder 
          Feeding more
          So greedily 
          
          Scream aloud
          Your cords of silence 
          Hide away
          Grand openings
          
          Always falling away
          And leave them to wonder
          Falling away
          When all we haves tonight
          Why can't we stay
          And have forever
          Drifting off, yet all is right

RagusChaos

A solid black slightly stretched Bentley, here, in this town? Now that is suspicious. I'm not usually one to go snooping around, but I can't shake this draw to it. No one's around, but with those blackout tinted windows, there's no way to tell who might be inside. Screw it. My hand folds around the door latch before I know what I'm doing or have a chance to prepare to say anything if anyone is sitting inside. I throw open the door. 
          
          The entire interior isn't just leather, it's custom lambskin. I would know that creamy soft coloration anywhere. A car like this definitely doesn't belong in an area we're in. There she is sitting on the far side. Black eveningwear dress  high heels that come to sharp points. Now she looks like she belongs in this car. I can't believe it. The woman I keep dreaming of is real. She shifts and struggles and I can see the rope that has her essentially hogtied. 
          
          "What are you doing here?" My mouth hanging wide open in shock. I know I suddenly look just as stupid as I sound. 
          
          "Miu, come untie me quickly." 
          
          I start to climb inside, but wait my name isn't Miu.
          
          I'm jolted awake. The radio is blaring over my head. My line screaming for parts. Here I sit outside dreaming again at work. I have to stop doing this. Who is she? Why have I been drwaming steadily about her for two months now? Why does every one of these episodes begin with me unknowingly passing out? I can't think about this right now or I'll be fired. I have to get them caught up, but this damn lift is governed. I will tell them I was on the John with stomach issues if it comes up. That should cover me for a bit.

-tixxed-

Happiest birthdayyyy !!!!!!

-tixxed-

@RagusChaos ofc I'm supposed to remember <3
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RagusChaos

@-tixxed- awe.. you remembered
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-tixxed-

Hope you had an amazing one
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RagusChaos

Blessings being all you wishto hear
          Cradled arms holding my fear
          Broken road will only lead you there
          Siphoning life into dispair
          
          Broken wings tether to the ground 
          The unwanted one I'm crowned 
          Shattered dreams cut into the bone
          Staggering shuttered alone.

RagusChaos

I am really loving this new piece to Depths of Deceit.  The series is tying together. Nikita has been given her first 'mark' and stumbled across some possible allies. They witness the awakening of a new fierce goddess. What will come as the tides begin to shift and the schemes come unveiled?

RagusChaos

Well I was about to put out the next chapter of Depths of Deceit when I had a startling revelation. So due to an oversight Im going to need to do some rewriting. Now I have two massive and important chapters going at once. Things are really starting to pick up.