NabillaNatasha1

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Heh...this  became my diary now my hatred for parents grow stronger everyday .  I'm the black of this damn family!!!!, They say I throw tantrum of 7 year girl..... What kind of 7 year girl throw tantrum about unfair you treat her ?! 
          	
          	I do fucking everything!!!! My attached to my mother or I called it my sickness stuck ..... My inner child want her don't want to her go ..... Or we leave this damn house. I tried to find jobs but didn't accept me ......why !!!! I have no one  I want be gone .
          	
          	Everytime I cried in my room there a voice in my heads want blood but my sanity keep it down .... I don't it my own blood or others..... I don't want to got to jail or murder someone.  I hate myself ......I want my grandma I miss her.....I want to be with her .
          	
          	I just my hair again ....I don't it good for my mental health, my dream got crush along with trust fory parents and sister.
          	
          	I never be good enough for them never .

NabillaNatasha1

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Heh...this  became my diary now my hatred for parents grow stronger everyday .  I'm the black of this damn family!!!!, They say I throw tantrum of 7 year girl..... What kind of 7 year girl throw tantrum about unfair you treat her ?! 
          
          I do fucking everything!!!! My attached to my mother or I called it my sickness stuck ..... My inner child want her don't want to her go ..... Or we leave this damn house. I tried to find jobs but didn't accept me ......why !!!! I have no one  I want be gone .
          
          Everytime I cried in my room there a voice in my heads want blood but my sanity keep it down .... I don't it my own blood or others..... I don't want to got to jail or murder someone.  I hate myself ......I want my grandma I miss her.....I want to be with her .
          
          I just my hair again ....I don't it good for my mental health, my dream got crush along with trust fory parents and sister.
          
          I never be good enough for them never .

NabillaNatasha1

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Tbh It been long time I'm here but I just done something so stupid. I just skip a job I want to try but I skip it because my sister hate my gut and she been cause me to last out in anger more than before. Whole family argument just this tiny problem because I declined to do the part time job and I was blame for start it. My sister the one keep cause to be anger and yet I'm the one being blame for everything in my fucking exist.......... I fucking hate her . I don't understand why she jealous of me ? I don't own or have Great talent like her ....... I want to be gone .....

NabillaNatasha1

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@NabillaNatasha1  Everyone want a job and yet I'm being fucking selfish bitch.... rejected such good part-time..... Because of my own sister 
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I know it's weird that I suddenly post this but .....I very sad right now and I found about technoblade.
          
          I found our after two hour his video uploaded ......I was crying all day and somehow I able to cheers my self up BC of my friends....I......I probably still sad....god. our favourite creator is gone......

NabillaNatasha1

I so stressful and yet I keep feel empty .............
          It so dark.....I fear my self sometimes.....I fear the fake friend's....I fear my self being fake myself ...........I will ...keep quiet ...

NabillaNatasha1

@AreebaDazzle i'm fine and I just tired as heck bc my roommates don't understand ever thought I explained a lot of time how to do digital art and it cause me lost a lot of sleep and give me a lot assignment that I not  done yet
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