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UPDATE:
Hey to those of you who bothered to read and understand what's been going on.
To start with:
I began working at my local cinema and had a panic attack in the bathrooms over my dead best friend (we used to go to the cinema a lot) and quit the very same day.
I'm not doing well in one of my modules in Uni, and if you fail a module, you fail the year.
My anxiety is fucking sky-high for no reason all the damn time. I can't even ask a question in class, it's that bad.
I'm struggling severely with my body image and it's destroying my mental health.
I've just had a disagreement with a mouthy girl on my course and have a horrid feeling she's gonna pick a fight w me in class, and bc of who she is: A) she'd win or B) I'd still get into trouble for defending myself.
I was trying to get diagnosed with PCOS, and am in for a scan soon. Upon closer inspection of reproductive organ related issues: I no longer think it's PCOS, instead I match more symptoms with Ovarian Cancer. So I'm worrying about that as well.
My best friend's mother (who helped hide the evidence that her step-dad SA'd & killed her) has just been released from prison as well.
So... as you can read: I've got a lot going on. But, writing helps pull me through everything. I am writing, just very slowly. So, just bear with.
To those of you who've stayed since the beginning: thank you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️