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Worst part of watching a fictional show (anime, cartoon, drama etc) is when finish the series
          Honestly I just feel too much emotional and I just google or do a deep search about that show for a week if not even for a month!
          Now this feeling depends on how the show has ended
          (But to be honest, even if the show has ended with a very good ending, most of us will be still feeling the sadness from the nostalgia)
          But ending the show with tragic ending is  the worst nightmare for any fan  
          Honestly I just finished a show and I am literally sad even though there is gonna be a new season for it
          I don't think I can survive it's final ending

I finished my 10th grade board exams (board exams are the exams  conducted in India by central board of secondary education or the state education. Marks secured here is gonna play a important role in your future) 
          Today was my last exam 
          It was maths tho
          The questions were somewhat easy and moderate, but it just hurts that i couldn't write well because I couldn't manage my time. 
          When I entered 10th, I really started to love maths and science very much, 
          I thought I would be overwhelmed with emotions because I will bid goodbye to all of my school mates and I will be no longer a school student
          But honestly I don't care about that anymore
          I just have to work more hard in my college years

Happy New Year guys! I hope this year goes good for all of you guys
          The ones who had to spend their 2023 with trauma, despair, shedding tears and pain
          Hope your 2024 goes good and the ones who enjoyed 2023, I hope 2024 goes good as well
          Anyways, Happy New Year!
          Take care <333

The guilt of not studying effectively in holidays is killing me :(

Ok guys, what made you start watching romantic shows, reading romantic fanfics or to get obsessed with romance
          Mine one is pretty weird, I had never watched anything romantic before even though I knew about romantic concepts
          It was Pokemon which made me love romantic stuff, a non romantic adventure themed anime
          Basically I used to like few ships and the first ship I shipped was Drew X May from Pokemon (and I still remember the ship name, it was contest shipping)
          Oh god ! I was so obsessed with their interactions and me being at the stage of a developing pre teenager, I developed romantic ideas ( about drew and may and the ideas are innocent ) 
          (I am really very much embarassed while  writing this)
          And I literally searched for every  contest shipping fanfic and that's how I got introduced to fanfictions
          I was lucky to find so many works about them as I wasn't the only Pokemon fan who liked that ship
          I was obsessed with a ship which wasn't even canon (But I do think there is some chemistry between them) 
          But overall I prefer Pokemon as an adventurous anime tho because I don't want any sort of drama or character bashing like in many fandoms of romantic shows
          In addition, Pokemon has much healthier relationships and friendships (maybe not all) compared to romantic shows 
          Like all the goodbyes, farewells in almost every region are so depressing to watch-
          That's why I love that show, it has so much cute relationships

Warning : Rant about Inappropriate accounts
          Honestly it's none of my business but guys please kindly take action against inappropriate accounts in internet
          I won't do any sort of remarks against those people because I have no right to but the fact that these people are becoming common in social media, internet etc is kind of wrong
          Their business is pretty popular in social media nowadays, in fact when I was only present in only one social media platform, (which I am not there anymore gladly) I could see dozens of them
          My dad's in Instagram, he was creeped out by all those sort of people with naked profile pics sending DM
          I remember a incident where a guy actually caught his father interacting with a woman in social media who does such sort of work (related to sexual content) 
          I am pretty angry to be honest, if they are doing fine in their life, why are they even using internet platforms for their satisfaction by traumatizing kids and ruining  families

Idk how many people know about this "cursing " Or "black magic" 
          Whether it's in movies or in real lives, it's always sickening to watch people try those activities on innocent people
          No one deserves to suffer the pain
          I mean they don't even do anything wrong
          It's so sad that many families are suffering from this

I honestly love indian religious/ cultural stories ( I don't wanna call it mythology because for me it's more than mythology)
          I mean look at female protagonists here, they are so humble , strong, brave, smart and pretty as well
          Idk it's just me but I was quite tired how women were portrayed nowadays in stories ( I won't speak for all tho)
          The female character gets less action, it's like the only thing they are worried about is marrying the male character but the male lead always sacrifices everything for the girl.
          I mean the female lead should also get some cool roles, it should not always be the prince saving the princess.
          A women can have strong roles as well, she loves her loved one as well
          She should be ready for everything to protect her husband and take care of her family 
          Being a feminist, it's high time people realise female characters being strong in dialogues isn't enough
          When the husband does so much for the wife why can't the wife do the same?
          We need strong female roles
          
          I mean in my opi

10th grade is too hard! I dedicated my almost entire day to studies and still I have to finish a lot 
          I am dumb at maths and I still have to read physics 
          I am good with Biology,Languages, Geography, History, English and all other subjects 
          And physics I am doing good from last year but currently I am not even getting time to study it and i didn't even understand that electric circuit concept
          Chemistry is fine, I have ups and downs there tho. 
          This is what happened basically
          My school has continued the school hours till 5:30 PM / 17:30 Pm (it starts at 8) and I come home at 6 at the evening
          And I had to go to some extra classes 
          Where maths will taught in a very complicated way when I don't even know the basics in the maths *sob and my grades went down in school because I didn't get time to study
          I told my dad to not to force me to go there because it's getting worse than better
          And other kids are so rude I swear, they are your friends but then they find someone smarter they start mocking you in front of their new smart friends to look cool 
          I swear they literally give you a "are you a alien" Look if I just ask some question to the teacher that I didn't even understand
          Ik I am dumb but arrogance ain't good for your health Buddy
          I feel like some 2nd option or something
          Wait I am not even a option lol
          But anyways my school should stop this shit because we aren't getting enough time to study
          And even on sundays my  school wants to arrange the classes
          Sunday is the only day i get to study for long hours 
          And i am getting only 5.5 hours sleep so yeah it's kind of bringing some changes in my body 
          And i totally don't feel comfortable
          If I don't get into a good college after this I will be considered uselesss 
          And there is an exam in 5 days
          Idk whether I will ace it or not 
          *le sigh

Bruh idk why do such creepy and traumatizing incidents happen with me
          I was out of my house then some random guy came and he is like "let's go on my bike"
          And he waiting like outside
          I was scared as hell
          I just walked with the main crowd and walked away fast as possible
          Was he trying kidnap a child or something (ik I look like a coward but I am just traumatized by such incidents) 
          He looks like 16-18 and he can be someone else who just knows me 
          But i don't think I could recognize him
          Even if he knew me
          That's not a way how you greet a person! (Like "let's get go on my bike") 
          That thing was creepy as hell
          If he is a bad person then I am just sad that such horrible people exist and have no shame to do such stuff even in spiritual places where people come for peace