LeftyGD

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alright, rant.
          	
          	moreso a vent post, but i feel so empty inside. i recently broke up with my bf and i genuinely never felt so devoid of a fulfillment of sorts. i wish stuff just worked out. he broke up with me because i was "too distant". he said i almost never did stuff with him anymore. the reason for that is because i never did anything in general. i hated going outside, i hated waking up early for my job, i hated going to school, i hated doing anything out of my room. i struggled doing literally anything productive. another point he had is that i never texted him first, to which i FEAR texting someone first. i think about texting someone for days before i actually do so. and with him i actually texted him sometimes. i never texted anyone else ever though, not first at least.
          	
          	i also found out he was planning to break up with me for over a week, which REALLY gets me sad, i was just never enough. i wish i was a better boyfriend but im just not good enough, never was :P
          	
          	i feel really shitty, i laid down in bed earlier and i just didnt know what to do, i joined discord calls with online friends to hope to feel better but it just didnt work, i genuinely cant see the end of the tunnel here. i ate like shit today and i cant see myself eating normal meals anytime soon. i just wish he knew i was sorry without me saying it to him myself, so that it seems more genuine

LeftyGD

este mensaje puede ser ofensivo 
alright, rant.
          
          moreso a vent post, but i feel so empty inside. i recently broke up with my bf and i genuinely never felt so devoid of a fulfillment of sorts. i wish stuff just worked out. he broke up with me because i was "too distant". he said i almost never did stuff with him anymore. the reason for that is because i never did anything in general. i hated going outside, i hated waking up early for my job, i hated going to school, i hated doing anything out of my room. i struggled doing literally anything productive. another point he had is that i never texted him first, to which i FEAR texting someone first. i think about texting someone for days before i actually do so. and with him i actually texted him sometimes. i never texted anyone else ever though, not first at least.
          
          i also found out he was planning to break up with me for over a week, which REALLY gets me sad, i was just never enough. i wish i was a better boyfriend but im just not good enough, never was :P
          
          i feel really shitty, i laid down in bed earlier and i just didnt know what to do, i joined discord calls with online friends to hope to feel better but it just didnt work, i genuinely cant see the end of the tunnel here. i ate like shit today and i cant see myself eating normal meals anytime soon. i just wish he knew i was sorry without me saying it to him myself, so that it seems more genuine