Jade_Igert

I stood before myself.
          	The mirror reflection mimicked my movements with precision. 
          	I watched as my body curved and bent.
          	Each articulated joint.
          	My eyes are now pale blue as I've grown.
          	Once vibrant and glittering.
          	Now content and dull.
          	
          	My voice is deeper.
          	Age had taken hold.
          	Now nineteen with no clue on how to hold such trivial nonsense. 
          	I watch myself close. 
          	
          	"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
          	I hold myself close.
          	A guarded heart with a thoughtful head upon my shoulders.
          	My scars show that I have survived. 
          	I pay them no mind. 
          	I am as great as I am.
          	As beautiful as I've always been.
          	No longer plagued by insecurities such as gteige over marks and moles.
          	I am beautiful. 
          	All of it shows."

Jade_Igert

I stood before myself.
          The mirror reflection mimicked my movements with precision. 
          I watched as my body curved and bent.
          Each articulated joint.
          My eyes are now pale blue as I've grown.
          Once vibrant and glittering.
          Now content and dull.
          
          My voice is deeper.
          Age had taken hold.
          Now nineteen with no clue on how to hold such trivial nonsense. 
          I watch myself close. 
          
          "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
          I hold myself close.
          A guarded heart with a thoughtful head upon my shoulders.
          My scars show that I have survived. 
          I pay them no mind. 
          I am as great as I am.
          As beautiful as I've always been.
          No longer plagued by insecurities such as gteige over marks and moles.
          I am beautiful. 
          All of it shows."

Jade_Igert

" You are beautiful. " She said.
          I shook my head.
          " Both of your eyes. You dyed hair that fades with time."
          I denied her words.
          " Your smile. It's always contagious. " I ytied to speak, but she hushed me.
          " What is it you do not see? "
          She asked, and yet I still couldn't speak.
          She went on.
          Listing what I saw as flaws.
          Yet again, she said it, and each time she did, I broke. 
          " You are beautiful. What you see is only a fantasy. What I see is the truth. Stop listening to those thoughts you are thinking. It hurts to hear, but if you don't listen, then you'll keep sinking. " 
          Tear in my eyes fell.
          My hand touched the cold, clear glass.
          I met my own eyes in the mirror at last.
          I pathetic smile fell upon my face.
          Looking at myself, I said, " You are beautiful too."
          
          ©️ 2024
          Title: Reality Check
          

Jade_Igert

"Do you know the meaning of life?" I remember asking once in my youth.
          
          The words even caught me by suprise at the time. 
          Even though curious minds can not be tamed.
          Question after question, I exclaimed. 
          Each answered to completion or to the best of ability.
          
          "No. I do know the meaning of my life. " a familiar stranger told me simply. 
          
          No remorse,  anger, or frustration. 
          It's just a simple thought for a hungry soul.
          No explanation was needed.
          For some odd reason, this one answer filled my head.
          
          My knowledge suddenly expanded, but content. 
          I still ask questions in my adulthood, but none as deep as my youth once was.
          
          "I know the meaning of my life, too." I replied. 
          The friendly stranger smiled as the sun began to set.
          My mother called me home.
          I ran along soon.
          The stranger didn't leave but faded away from the light of day.
          
          I never saw them again.
          It doesn't pain me to say so.
          As their face blurred by time.
          Their words are now worth more than a dime.
          
          The friendly stranger's words reamin with me.
          They will until I die.

Jade_Igert

Why?
          Why is my world falling apart?!
          People are fighting, people are leaving, and I can't stop it.
          I've tried to negotiate.
          I've tried to help both sides.
          I've tried to help them find the grey line.
          I've tried.
          
          Do I keep fighting?
          "Choose your battles." Why do I have to choose?
          Why do they have to fight?
          Please, someone tell me what I'm doing wrong so I can make this all right!
          It's fallen apart.
          I've used tape, glue , and rubber cement, but nothing sticks.
          It washes away or dries up like mud after a rainy day.
          
          My heart can't take it anymore.
          I'm teetering over the edge of flat lining.
          When it's all said and done, who's left standing?
          Neither side has won.
          All together, they've only lost.
          
          

Jade_Igert

It was four in the morning.
          Wide awake with dark circles under my eyes.
          The lack of sleep caused me no harm. At least, that's what my brain told my heart.
          In the dim lit room, I typed away at my keyboard. 
          My fingers fast-paced, and my back aced. 
          As I hit the last key, I heard the door squeak.
          Around I turned, my eyes burned.
          The sudden change made my head spun.
          It didn't matter, though. Logic in my situation would always win.
          Either from the lack of sleep or the four hour old cold coffees, I saw myself.
          Standing there right before me. 
          I was different. 
          My hair was longer and colored blue.
          I gagged. That was ao not my hue.
          I had pleading eyes as I looked around.
          I didn't speak,  nor make a sound.
          Slowly, I crept inside, taking my hands. I looked myself in the eyes.
          A small smile on my face as suddenly hand were on my face.
          My lips moved, no words in their place.
          Suddenly, it was dark, and my eyes grew heavy.
          I was pulled out of my chair.
          I cried. "No, I'm not ready." 
          A simple."shh." Was all she had ready.
          As I am placed in my bed, the covers warm and the  pillows cool.
          I watched as I faded out of my room.
          A dream or not, to this day, I am still so confused.
          The only thought I had was 'Good for you." 

Jade_Igert

Every road I've walked has led me to a new place.
          Roads I've walked have been carved and paved of my own two hands.
          On them, my feet have walked clothed and bare.
          I am no stranger to the occasional sharp stone,
          Or stubbed toe.
          To be frank, I've cursed like a sailor and kept my silence. 
          I've walked roads made of dirt, earth, pavement, sticks, and stone.
          Along the countryside or through the cities at night.
          I've seen it all with both of my eyes.
          Never in one place too long. 
          I don't have places to be or somewhere to go.
          I just wander,
          I'm not a drifter nor a nomad.
          Although if I wanted, I could always plant my feet and find a place to call home.
          I do not.
          I'm not one to place my roots in one spot.
          So I wander, often alone, but a time or two a person who has been traveling or led a stray.
          We share brief moments or travel for days.
          No one has stayed with me long.
          Maybe a night or two or just a minute to talk.
          Sadly, I forget their voices and faces.
          Much like an old song from my childhood.
          Lyrics nothing but a blur Although the melody stays.
          Humming to myself, I always smile.
          I know that my youth is precious, but in my old age, I will stop walking.
          My journey will end, and I do not know.
          On my end, I will smile one last time.
          I will remember my time well spent. 
          For now, I continue to walk.
          In the rain and snow.
          The sun and clouds overhead.
          Yes, my youth may be precious, but I will stop walking when I'm dead.
          
          Title: Give and inch, Take a mile
          2023
          Jade Igert
          

Jade_Igert

My armor is damaged and rusted.
          I am wounded and scared,
          The remainder of my weapons are scattered across the battle field.
          I am the only one who remains.
          I am the only left with my last name.
          
          I watched one by one as my loved ones were cut down,
          Defeced and fraudulent terms brought upon them.
          I survived, 
          I left their Graves behind.
          I knew I would return.
          Only, I wish the circumstances had been different. 
          
          The eldest daughter,
          The heir to my bloodline.
          All for it to mean their names have been forsaken.
          I still moved,
          I fought, I did what I could until the end.
          
          Left to rott,
          I wonder.
          Bloodied and pained as my footsteps become dragged and uncoordinated. 
          A smile on my face appears.
          
          After so long I hear it.
          Laughter,
          I've gone insane. 
          From the times away,
          It's my dismay that I have forsaken my own family name.
          I fought and bent for them.
          
          I defend their honor,
          Alone and all up until the end.
          My, no warrior am I.
          Only a lost soul who walks the earth alone.
          Far from home,
          But with no conscious mind.
          
          I was the warrior who got left behind.
          
          Title: Warrior 
          2023

Jade_Igert

When a man hits a woman,
          He is shunned from those he loves.
          
          When a boy hits a girl,
          She is told "He is just having fun."
          
          When a girl hits a boy,
          She is "Ignorant and misplaced."
          
          When a woman hits a man,
          "It was his fault in the first place."
          
          Abusive ways are passed on through generations.
          A boy can be no man if he hits a woman.
          A girl can be no man if she hits a boy.
          Either gender is unable to surrender. 
          
          So when you see another being beaten, bullied or shamed.
          Help them, please.
          Regardless of their name.
          Not a single person should experience pain.
          Girl or boy,
          Woman or man,
          Why does it matter what's in their pants?
          Why does it matter what's on their chest?
          No one should be harmed, no one.
          Abuse is not for the best.
          
          End it here and now.
          Before more lives are lost.
          Are gender roles that important?
          If so, then when will it stop.
          At what cost?

Jade_Igert

Hello little one!
          Look how you've grown.
          I promise, it's me.
          It has been too long since I've seen you last.
          Now, now please don't run off so fast.
          
          I've missed you dear,
           You've gone and grown up.
          How delightful it is to see you never gave up.
          I remember when you were just a child back then.
          Eyes full of wonder and a mind of your own.
          How I miss those days when I'm all alone.
          
          Our time was way cherished, 
          It's time now.
          I'll always be in your heart, you know it so.
          You've grown up,
          It's time to let me go.
          Come now don't cry.
          I promise you won't be alone.
          
          So many adventures, 
          Pages well written,
          A story well read. 
          Go on love, 
          It's time to put our book to bed.
          You've got your own life ahead.
          So keep on traveling.
          
          Remember the world ahead.
          I will always be in your heat.
          This doesn't mean you'll forget. 
          I will still be with you.
          Only I won't be by your side.
          I'll be with your children,
          I will be their guide.
          
          So run along and grow old and Grey.
          Because from here on out,
          Just like before,
          I'll be with you all the way.
          After all,
          What are imaginary freinds for?
          
          2023
          
          Imaginary Friend
          

Jade_Igert

Hey Sunshine!
          Why do you look so blue?
          Did you bump your head?
          Or was someone mean to you?
          Hey there sunshine, don't let them get you down. 
          You are often too bright to have your head in the clouds.
          
          Hey sunshine, 
          Listen to me.
          Don't look so sad.
          Don't be so gloomy.
          You've got so much to smile for 
          So much to do.
          Just because there are others who can't see that 
          Doesn't mean you can't be you.
          
          Hey Sunshine,
          Let me see you smile.
          Come now, I haven't seen it in a while.
          I will admit it's hard to be happy all the time.
          There are even clouds that storm on more than just the outside.
          
          So, hey there sunshine. 
          It's okay to be blue.
          You are the nicest blue Jay I've ever met.
          So when you are Red like a cardinal, 
          And you can't fine which way to go.
          Just come find me and I'll help you.
          Just so you know.
          
          Hey Sunshine,
          Look at you now.
          Smiling like a star,
          Always my favorite to see.
          
          I love you sunshine, 
          Just know how much you mean to me!